grief in recovery from depression

[Stellata]

I'm well into my recovery from pretty much lifelong depression. I'm working intensely at the underlying issues/causes.
And as I approach the deeper layers of wounding, I'm assailed by waves of what might appear to be depression, but are actually grief. And the waves ease as I work things through.
The characteristics of this state include -
Feeling trapped in a bubble.
Feeling sunken, weighed down.
Feeling unreachable.
Feeling so deeply sad, yet I can barely cry.

I was wondering if anyone else experiences/has experienced this.

[discovery_journey]

yes i experience this
i am recovering from depression and bpd - i was formally diagnosed with depression 11 years ago, but I've been depressed for twenty years.
I very much get the feeling of being weighed down and also of being trapped.

[whirlpools]

I'm battling with feeling this, sometimes to a greater or lesser degree. It's hard to just sit with the feelings of loss, the grief of having missed out on a normal childhood and adolescence, so I try to make plans to make small changes in the future, to try and have some of the things I should have had then.

It's hard to think of these things when you're feeling so down, though. Do you know ways to help yourself when you feel like this?

[Horizon]

Katie,

I can relate so much to what you are describing, and I think it's very courageous of you to battle through all these difficult emotions.
Thinking of you.

[plastic rose]

I can relate. The way I see it is that depression is sometimes partly the result of repressed grief and anger, and it's normal when you're recovering from it for those feelings to be released. Talking to a therapist can help you find out where it's coming from, but at the end of the day you just have to stay strong and get through it, and know that it's just something that's necessary for you to get well, and that it won't last. It might feel really awful, but it can't hurt you, and your body will only give you as much grief at a time as you can handle. Just take it easy when it strikes and wait for it to pass. You will be okay.

[makedamnsure]

I feel these things a lot.
When I am grieving for myself I feel in a bubble (and you chose the exact same way of describing it as I do).

Sometimes I feel unbearable sadness for the world in general (war, natrual disasters etc).

And often I greive for my brothers, and what they have had to go through which makes me feel weighed down with responsibilty at times.

[Stellata]

Thanks everyone.
I'm penetrating deeper layers, and this is relieving.
I'm becoming able to cry, and feel layers of joy and sadness.
This is a relief.
I feel delicate though, and need a lot of tenderness and reassurance.