*hugs April, Laura, Oliver, Helen and Mark tight* its nice to see you all here, makes me feel better about the world somehow ;)
*waves at anarchistl0ve*
April, hunni, I read your RV, I wish you could see the beautiful spiritual person that I can. Hang in there babe, you will be fabulous *hugs again*
Laura, we've had this conversation love, you are a special lady who cares about others nonstop and you need to try capture some of that love for yourself. We love ya *cuddles tight*
Take care of each other, I'm offline for a day or so again, not that you'll miss me given I've hardly been here!
aw helen *cuddles* i'm sorry that you have to worry so much about friends and that the doctors aren't being helpful. Thats really awful.
*hugs april* thanks hun.. i dont know though.. The panic attacks i had yesterday were based around work. I havent had one today, but i dont work so i probably wont have one, they are exhausting though.. Anyway, good luck at your new therapist. Sorry about everything that is going on with you lately. Wish i could do more for you *extra huggles*
<3
forgiveness is the release of all hope for a better past - buddy wakefield
Here is a link to my R/V thread if anyone cares to read , I'm hoping I haven't broken any rules by what I typed in it ..
If you have a reply please PM me , Thanks.
EDIT: kinda triggering
Last edited by Doikers : 09-06-2010 at 08:47 PM.
Reason: trigger warning
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
*sits and stares at wall*
i cant do this anymore. i cant. i cant even use phone support because 1.its after 9pm
2.my phones broken
3.i have no credit and my mums confiscted my phone
You called me an angel, there must be a twist,
Have you ever seen an angel with scars on her wrist?
And blood trickling down from a gash on her arm,
Have you ever seen an angel self harm?-Unknown
i don't know what to do. i can't take this much longer. even home doesn't feel like a safe place. it doesn't even feel safe to talk about how i feel to jarrod.
**** this.
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
i can't do this anymore, i can't. i need strength that i don't have.
and jarrod doesn't understand about the NEED to cut, how it's there and it's not going to go away until i "give in."
:'(
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
I'm sorry that I'm not up to giving individual replies at the moment. Not feeling too crash hot, and the computer problems - all due to Windows issues - aren't helping. I have been reading however and I'm thinking of all of you. *sigh*
So.damn.over.everything.
*disappears*
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
*huggles everyone* sorry not been around much to offer support, I've been so busy I've hardly had time to breathe. I have to drive for 7 hours tomorrow, which I guess is my own silly fault for organising a long weekend in cornwall, but not my fault that last weekend my car broke down near oxford and I have to pick it up tomorrow. Anyway a long weekend in cornwall will be fab. sorry though no internet again. I really wish I could offer more support to you guys, I feel like I'm being particularly useless, but I do think about you and send you all hope and strength to help you keep fighting.
I went to my brother's fiances hen party at the weekend, felt like mutton dressed as lamb, it was a very pretty dress, I just wasn't feeling pretty, luckily by the time I got home I was too knackered to do anything other than sleep. I need to start doing more exercise. told work I was leaving today, that made me feel very guilty, but it's for the best I have to keep telling myself that, had fun dancing :)
Anyway tis late again, leaves everyone with plenty of cuddles and hope everybody's week gets better.
oh does anyone know the best place on this site to ask advice about camouflage cream?
"I am me and me is good enough if I would only be it openly"
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Hiya everyone *offers hugs to those who want need then and hot or cold drinks depending on what side of the world you live in*
Am absolutly hyper. Got good news after soo much trouble it is good. I get to move house soon and it will be nice. I met the most adorable saintbernard yesterday. Unfortunatly my only jacket smells like dog and is covered in his winter coat. Hmmmm get to give him a bath today. Hihiheeeeeeee I love animals!
meep... interview at uni trying to transfer to tomorrow morning [up at 6:30- shoot me now o_O]. i hope they dont ask bout grades... might just say bout the depression but am getting treatment... god i need to get in to the uni... dads work will only cover me for insurance if im in uni full time =\ so if i dont get into this i wont have insurance next year =s. fml.
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
*Offers hugs to horseRidingBbe07* I understand. It is nervouse, interviews but that is ok you will do it. Hold on in there. Sorry if it sounds wrong it just aint working today.
A frog is green the others are blu pink an sun color
*Hugs and cuddles for you all who needs and want em *
Last edited by anarchistl0ve : 10-06-2010 at 03:32 AM.
Reason: wanted to add something else
Hello everyone name is Becca age 34, everyone who is a resident of my head may or may not show. I know Sammie will if there is someone around her age. Ace would be most likely to show up out of all of them.
The residence of my head
Sammie: Age 6, sweet, shy, playful, doesn't like grown men
Leigh: Age 16, sort of a loner, creative, friendly, protective of Sammie
Ace: Age 29, sensitive, creative, a good guy tries to convince Sammie each day that he is.
