First of all, here is my topic in the general advice area, but I wanted to get some adult input on my situation.
http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...d.php?t=136544
that is a bit is backstory, but the reason I brought it here is I recently found out that my ex wife is now pregnant with her new husband (who she started a relationship with while we were still married and she was pregnant with our son.) I am really struggling with this and am feeling really triggered by it. I feel like I shoul be ok with this but I am not! Now, I do not want my ex back. I know I am way better off without her negative input in my life, so that is not the issue. But I am really frustrated by this situation. I have put alot of thought into this and I think it is tied to th disconnected feeling I have from my current life and where I want to be. I feel like I am settling for what I have and she is moving on and getting rewarded when she betrayed MY trust!! I know I have no control of this situation, but I am mad that I feel like the effed up one and she is responsable for it and she gets the house I built, the life I provided, primary custody of our son and now adding to her family?!!
Anyone had a similar situation? I know I would have drunk myself stupid last night if I had not had my son with me. Tonight I am inviting a friend over to occupy my attention to not sit at home sulking over it. But I think this ties into deeper aggregation that are still unresolved, maybe I can use this to explore what else I have repressed. I would love to hear some input on this. Thanks everyone.
