I finally stopped lying to myself.
I miss you.
I need you.
^This.
and I hate myself more each day for it, tell me...when you finally end it all after I have the strength to get up and walk away, to be happy...am I going to be the last thought in your head before you close your eys forever? you know, the one you "loved so much" is it going to be me..or are you manipulating me again to make me hurt myself worse?
you see that scar Manda..yeah that? do you see how deep it is? that one is all for you babygirl. you RUINED me. and I thnik it's best taht I just delete you for good from my life.
I still love you..and I think..if I go away, and forget you..it'll all just stop..and I'll be whole again please let that happen, please let me forget you, i can't take anymore of this pain..
~you, yes, you...little girly, would you please fuck off she is not with you! the ring on her god damn finger and the tears in her eyes and the very thought of loseing me is proof. take your bullshit elsewhere. you're fucking pathetic.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
These last ten years have been great. I wouldnt want to start them over without you. When you said, you wanted to cut and I told you to go ahead but dont come crying to me when it doesnt work, I was just mad and hurt. If you had said that to me all the times I called you, I would have completely broken down. Im scared of what you could be doing to yourself. I want you to call me and say you're okay. But you haven't and thats killing me. Im sorry. You're my best friend. I dont want to lose you.
The moment you feel like giving up, remember all the reasons you held on for so long.
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
I think we both know where this is going.
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
Your dad died not even a year ago, my brother died a year and a half ago. I'm selfish. I'm having a complete breakdown everyday, and you're doing your best to keep it together. I should just die. I'm a selfish worthless coward.
"Death is not the greatest of evils; it is worse to want to die, and not be able to."- Sophocles
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
I hate that my chest does that when I see you. It's all going so wrong.
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
You can buy me with a coffee,I'm so cheap. Got bitten fingernails&a head full of past;Got a broken heart&your name on my cast.
&&I wanted her to tell me that she will never wake me.
Goddamnit I know you're really stressed and scared to death but these plans need to be set already. I won't be able to sleep at night if I do nothing and know what's happening to you, especially if they kill you. All you have to do is just tell me you can come back with me on a certain flight. My God just... I don't even know. I'm sorry.
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
Dear mind, get it together. This will be the third time youve sat this exam, something higher than an E may be nice. Intelligent my fucking arse.
Sarah: Give me the child.
Jareth: Sarah beware. I have been generous up till now. I can be cruel.
Sarah: Generous? What have you done that's generous?
Jareth: Everything! Everything you have wanted I have done. You asked the child be taken, I took him. You cowered before me, I was frightening. I have reordered time. I have turned the world upside down, and I have done it all for you! I am exhausted from living up to your expectations of me. Isn't that generous?
you sing better then me, don't say that you dont..because you do :p
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
Ckearly I won't ever be what you expected. Clearly I won't ever be good enough.
Why can you never tell when to throw in the towel? I really can't be bothered with this crap anymore. I mean what I say when I say you make me insanely happy. Why don't you get it? Your fine. You need to do nothing. I haven't given up on you. Just everything else.
The world is just illusion always trying to change me.
You will find wonder wherever you can, and spread joy whenever you are able.
I felt emotions of gentleness and pleasure, that had long appeared dead, divide within me. - Frankenstein.
I'm afraid to know the reason why you didn't pick up your phone...
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
could you not bring that up anymore? thanks
just because you're child is living doesn't mean I'm able to talk about my shit yet
and no. I'm not. again.
ask me one more fucking time about that every time I'm a little depressed and we're gunna have an issue. keep your fucking nose out of my past please
you're my friend but my goddess, you need to shut up.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I am sorry I made the apt so hard on you... but it was just happening all over again, I had to isolate and put my fences back up... I couldnt let myself be hurt yet again.
but now you are gone and you probably just think I hate you.
you were nice though... you knew when to push
but that doesnt matter now - nothing does
yet another person crossed off the list and the best part is they left me
...they did it and it wasnt me... just shows yet again how unworthy and bad I serisouly am.
sometimes being strong means not holding back the tears but letting them fall
~˙·٠•●♥Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥●•٠·˙~
my fur baby girls are my life <3
r.i.p my beautiful girl jackie. i will love you always no matter what - 6/5/10
I hate it that you are a policeman, and I hate it that you can't do anything to help me. HELP ME!!! why won't somebody lock him up? I FUCKING HATE THE JUSTICE SYSTEM and I can't tell you because you get all defensive. I just want to go out there and steal those children back, and while i'm at it I want to kick and punch the living daylights out of that dick.
You are talking to: Kat The Others are: Annabell (Belle), Rosie, Lotty, Kate, Amy, Jessica (Jess), Sarah, Ramiel(Miel), Elizabeth (Liz), Shadow
I hate you right now. You hypocrit. You complete and utter hypocrit.
I feel like trash. I feel worse than useless.
"I only had you come along because you know what to do with the glycogen."
I was up all night worrying you were going to die and you go ahead and say that. Thanks...
