The Borderline Personality Disorder Thread

[x-dying-inside-x]

Hi everyone.
How are you all?
I didn't go college today i didn't wake up till gone 12 and my first lesson was at 9:30.

[~Grace~]

Hi daniella...sorry you didnt make college hun.
Hope youre ok
hugs and love xx

[dark faery princess]

Ahh don't worry about it daniella. I've done that many a time - standard student thing! As is turning up but sleeping your way through it, turning up drunk/severely hungover -- Of course I have never done this :D hehe.

Hope you're ok x

[Hollz]

Hope everyones okay. Went for lunch with my SW today, was good, then went to the bank and have some money paid in but the amount doesnt tally with anything i am expecting to go in, so I am unsure.

What to do today? I am going to tidy my flat and then I dunno.

...oh gonnae do some ucas form stuff

[~Grace~]

Hugs Hollz...
am off to get dressed and sort out all my winter clothes to go up in the loft...been meaning to do for along time and now its time to get off my ass and do it xx

[dark faery princess]

Good luck with the ucas stuff, certainly don't envy you there! I know you've done it before, but you can pm me if you get stuck, though no promises i'll be any use! lol

Howa u rowie?

x

[~Grace~]

i feel low but calmer than i was yesterday.
i just allow things to get to me and i shouldnt
thankyou...how are you? xx

[dark faery princess]

*hugs* sorry you're feeling low, but good that you're feeling more calm.

I know what you mean, but it is really difficult, so don't give yourself a hard time about it. Did you go to A&E in the end?

I'm ok thanx - procrastinating rather a lot though! got my first exam on monday!

x

[Hollz]

Not done a ucas form since I was in school, subsequent uni times I havent done one, so its the first since I was like erm 17 lol, so whats that 7 years, I am sure it will be okay, just dont know who I will get for a reference.

I have asked Mari if she wants to come over tonight but don't know if she will be able to, but i need to give the flat a good clean anyhows

[dark faery princess]

Oooh I didn't relaise you guys live near each other! Scotland is obviously the place to be if you have bpd! lol x

Erm, could you maybe ask your boss? Or someone from work? Not surehow it works if you're not going straight from school. Good luck!

x

[~Grace~]

No... i didnt go to a and e. didnt want to ask hubby to take me. didnt want to sit there for hours on end and didnt want to go there so soon after my last visit.

I mean the reason for going is to get stitched to help prevent scarring and infection. well, i have an ongoing infection anyhow and as i always harm in the same place its just one mass of scars anyway.

I know my doctor wants me to go each time so the crisis team know and the cmht know, but whats the point really?......

sorry...gosh i sound so angry and bitter..maybe i am...

whats your exam on monday? xx

[Hollz]

Aye Mari lives in Glasgow and I stay in Paisley, well I am from Paisley but my flat is in Renfrew as I moved closer to my work, but Glasgow is only 10 mins away for me...

I was thinking asking work, but then they would know I was going to leave and I don't wanna hand in notice until I definately get a place somewhere, as really all applications are meant to be done by January I think, so its a push I will get a place this year you know.

I will ned to have a think about it like.

[dark faery princess]

Rowie, I don't think you sound angry and bitter at all. I can see your doctors reasoning with that - if they realise you've been so many times it might spur them on to help. Though it sounds like they've been pretty useless to you so far! Have you ever been admitted into hospital?

Infection really isn't good. I know you're trying to punish yourself, but you don't need punishment - you need love and care. From yourself as well as those around you. Also, having an infection will make you feel run-down and that will effect your mood.

That's pretty kewl hollz, cos doesn't hellz live near you too? Did you guys meet thru ryl? Yeh I guess that could be a problem with teh reference. Hmm, what course you hoping to go for? There must be some advice somewhere on what to do if you're not coming staright our of school.

I was gonna say maybe ask your cpn or sw, but are you gonna put on the form that you have mental health issues?

x

[dark faery princess]

Or do you still have your old reference? Just send that in again with a note explaining that you've been working for a couple of years or something

[dark faery princess]

Sorry -three posts in a row... but found this:

I am a mature student. Who can provide a reference for me?

Your referee will typically be:

• a tutor from your current or recent studies

• an adviser who knows you well

• a current or former employer.

A family member or someone who is only a friend cannot act as your referee.
If you are not currently studying, your referee should be someone who is able to talk professionally about your application and potential, such as an employer or training officer. Your reference does not have to come from an academic source




Ask an old employer? Or have you only had the one you've got now?

... I should really do some work lol. I am the queen of procrastination right now!

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[~Grace~]

yes ive been admitted several times to hospital...once on a section. But to be honest my self harming behaviour is always worse when im in hospital so they try to keep me out. The last time i was admitted was 2 years ago...

[dark faery princess]

Fair enough. It just seems ridiculous. I know that for a lot of people going into hospital doesn't help, but the fact that you are still able to SI in hospital, and the fact that they discharge you for doing so is just completely ridiculous! You will find something that helps you one day x

[dark faery princess]

Oh and my exam is on social behaviour and development - mainly centred around adolescence, but got a bit of adulthood stuff in there as well! Not hugely exciting, but better than some of them which make you want to stab the lecturers lol

x

[~Grace~]

I really hope it goes well for you faery xx

[Whispered Secret]

Just been diagnosed with BPD today :(