The Borderline Personality Disorder Thread

[x-dying-inside-x]

I'm not too bad hunny just trying to get on with it you?

[dark faery princess]

what kind of music do you guys like?

[dark faery princess]

Yeh same! Can't wait til I can leave this library. I did some of my dissertation wrong :( my tutor said to do these random statistical test on my data and they are useless. My own fsult for not understanding statistics tho :(

You got lots of work?

x

[x-dying-inside-x]

I listen to most music!

[dark faery princess]

Yeh same depending on what mood I'm in. I always used to listen to kinda depressing music when I was younger, but getting into happy stuff too now. Even dance music which I used to hate. I guess that comes from clubbing.

Anyways, I can't remember the point of this post.

Think I'm getting RSI in my typing finger :( I can't use all fingers when I type cos I'm not coordinated enough lol

I like all music apart from rap.

I am feeling very numb at the moment.
SG

[dark faery princess]

Hey SG! btw I love the strawberry gashes song :D

Dunno if you're mad enough to still b online at this time, but if you wanna chat, I'm about x

Yea am still awake.
I love that song too
SG

[dark faery princess]

Ahh sorry SG. I refreshed my page but your post didn't come up. Otherwise I would have replied.

I have to walk home on my own in the dark soon :( I've done it loads of times, but have a bad feeling about it tonight.

Sorry guys, when you get to the thread in the morning it's gonna have loads of random posts of me talking to myself hehe.

I keep thinking there is a man standing behind me. tis v diconcerting

[[BrokenHeels]]

I can imagine that must be very disconcerting. I often have that sort of feeling and it's horrible. Especially at night. *Hugs*

[dark faery princess]

Thankyou! walking home is not gonna be fun! lol

I'm finally about to leave the library now, but will be bac here again in like 8 hrs *cries*

How are you?

x

[[BrokenHeels]]

Did you get home okay? Boo to having to be back in 8 hours!

I'm okay thanks. Managed to persuade myself to be brave and move from living room to the bedroom. I'd convinced myself something bad was going to happen in bedroom but made it at last!

[discovery_journey]

morning everyone... how are we all today?

I'm ok, i guess.
am just about to email the charity i do vol work with to tell them i won't be coming in for the foreseeable future.
I really don't enjoy it anymore and I've had loads of time off since I had a crisis in March. I just don't want to go back to it.

thing is.. I always give up on stuff. so i feel a bit down on it in a way.
on the plus side there's another charity that works with people with mh challenges that i'd like to vol work for.
so it's not like i'm going to be doing nothing.

i dunno... i just hate that i don't stick to things.
is that a bpd trait, do you think??

[hellz]

morning aged i know what u mean about not sticking to things i do that too. it'll be good to do some volunteer work with with mh tho.

im ok feeling a bit ill this morning which is annoying

[youngatheart]

Mari ~ Im fine thanks, how are you?
Hellz ~ sorry to hear you are feelign ill today
Agedharmer ~ Im not sure if it is but I know I dont stick with things either, I get really excited about htings and then forget about them.

How is everyone else today? what are your plans?

[ferretmonster]

hey folks,

i was just thinking about what u said agedharmer, and ive always thought i don't have that problem but i guess i do but with smaller things like in my leisure time,

hope you find something you can enjoy hun x

hellz hope your ok this morn

youngatheart i dont have many plans today how about you?

me umm i was v norty last night and now i have to work out how to hide the annoyingly very obvious evidence concidering mum and dad are both off work today :/

[dark faery princess]

HI everyone,

Thanx broken heels, I got home fine, and actually only just made it in now. Not good.

Don't worry about it aged harmer. Life is difficult enough without feeling you HAVE to do something you don't enjoy just out of principle. It's hard enough having BPD without that, so just do whatever makes you happy. That's how I see it anyways. Sometimes I don't stick with things, but usually manage to. Apparently though (this is what I learnt in my psych lectures) people who constantly move from job to job /career to career have not properly formed their identity yet. As in, they kinda haven't decided who they are yet. And people with BPD often have an unstable identity. So maybe the 2 are linked.

What's wrong hellz? How are you claire and young at heart?

Claire, what do you have to hide that you did last night? Hope you're safe hun. Also, how's the finger doing?

x

[ferretmonster]

hey faery

im ok, glad u got home safe hun x how come it took u so long?

i cut last night is all and umm it bled on my bed sheets grr. fingers still attached :)

keep hoping rowies going to turn up soon but im going out in a bit

[dark faery princess]

Oh it didn't take me long to get home, I just stayed in the library til nearly 2 doing my dissertation. Due in on thurs.

Oh dear, hope you're ok? Sounds random but I've found that head and shoulders shampoo is good for getting blood stains out. Apparently salt water is good too.

Oh yeh course she went to hopsital last night didn't she. Did you hear any more from her after that?

x

[ferretmonster]

Im fine thanks

yeah she went to a and e but havent heard anything since :(