Triggering (SI) - SI in order to Breathe?

[ebec11]

I'm starting to realize that whenever I SI, I feel so relieved and it's like I'm lighter and in that moment I'm not depressed or worried or anything. This is a big realization for me, as I wasn't sure why I hurt myself before. Does anybody else feel like this when they SI.

[ebec11]

During is when I breathe the best.
I've been avoiding urges for the most part by talking to people on here, but sometimes it's unavoidable I think.

[DontLookUp]

i can totally relate, its like such a relief and like i can be calm and breathe properly.

[Pierrot]

Yes, I can definitely identify. SI is a powerful equalizer. I think this is part of what makes SI so difficult to understand for people who don't do it. It's definitely the factor I have the hardest time explaining to others.

[SunsetxJunkie]

I can definitely relate. There are times when I've been so upset that I feel like I'm being smothered and when I SI, I calm down really quickly, and I think that's why it's so hard for me, and a lot of people, to stop.

[-Pandora-]

I can definately relate to this. When I SI I feel as though everything that has been bugging me has just ran away. However, I always know that they will come back to get me in the end so I don't feel relaxed for long and I feel scared to experience the feelings that I felt before I SI'd. If that makes sense? I'm chatting crap, sorry.

[ebec11]

Yah, I know badmemories-x, that's why I'm trying to stop.

[Jessica5452]

Yes! I do it because when i do cut it's like everything slows down, i'm not upset, i feel like i can breath again and for that moment everything is ok and is perfect and the world is new and happy and fair again. I know that sounds messed up that i have to cut myself to feel that way but i do. I actually wrote a poem about that a while back.

i search my room for it
i paced the house thinking of ways to get it
that breath was what i wanted.
i took the blade to my flesh to feel the pain
i took the blade to my flesh to see the blood
i needed to breath again
somehow i had stopped
i don't know when and i don't know why
but i had stopped
to get the breath back i have to cut
i need to feel the sting for things to slow down
for my brain to take a break
if i don't, it becomes too much
too much to handle
too much to pretend to be okay with
the smile has to fade eventually

[charlieglasgow]

it's why it's addicting, that's why we use it.

[lcalvin]

I'm all for going natural whenever I have that "disturbed" feeling. I listen to music, exercise- eat some comfort food and all. A friend who's suffering from the same issues too shared a site with tips on all going natural- this is not spam. Again, it's just a personal tip. No harm if you try coz like I said, I have avoided any sort of medications too. http://17800mzhom2sazfnxazjmzlj3q.hop.clickbank.net/