Triggering (SI) - All this time for Nothing!

[Smophy]

I have no idea how long i have been clean for now.

I was excited tho. Excited at the thought of my first summer in yrs were i dont have to cover up. Im actually going away with friends.

I want to do it tho. I really do. And i know that as many years has this has gone on. And as many years as i have been clean i still cant stop it.

I want to cut. and i know i will do it. But where to do it so it satisfies me yet leaves little mark?!

Im a bad person. I know. I cant seem to help but give in to my little addictions. I love it. No matter how long i go for without i still give in. Why? Its just insane. Owell.

[Elley88]

I used to have this feeling - I'd stopped SIing, but still thought about it all the time, so I used to wonder what the point was in stopping at all. I felt like I'd failed. But the longer you resist, the less you will want to. The urge does eventually get less and less, you just have to hang on. Because every time you give in, the urges will come back worse. I know it's hard to, but try and look forward to the near future where you will stop thinking about it so much. x

[Freedom Fighter]

Quote:

Originally Posted by Freedom Fighter

Any time in recovery is time well spent. Just because you slipped up doesn’t me that you failed. Slip ups make you stronger. That’s right slip ups make you stronger.

Every time you fall you have a choice to stand up and brush yourself off or lay there in self pity. You get stronger every time you stand up again. After a few (or many) falls you will finally have the strength to recover. No one walks on their first try and no one recovers on their first try.

It takes babies a long time and a lot of practice to walk. A day or even a week is like first trying to crawl. Many of us here on RYL fell then. A month is like finally crawling.

Three months is like taking that first step. Slipping up after that is like the first big fall. At about 6 months you can walk on your own. The more you can walk the harder the falls. Also remember guys even adults fall. Don’t get discouraged.

-Freedom Fighter (Tom)