Yes, eventually.
I think that if I tried to stop right now, it would just be added pressure, or something else to make me feel like crap when I mess up. So... no. In the next year I can't see myself fully stopping.
If someone ever says to you "You need to stop thinking so much," call them ignorant in your head and keep thinking deeper. It is this mentality that breeds stupidity and sheeple. Your mind is the most important tool you have. If you stop using it, it will atrophy.
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
I do intend on stopping, but I don't intend on stopping anytime in the near future. I'm simply just not ready to stop, I don't have an incentive to stop and I've no other positive coping methods in place (which work). If I did decide to stop now, well, quite simply, I wouldn't be able to do it. I'm almost certain that I'd slip up, and when that happens it'd make me feel even worse and therefore more likely to self-harm. I'm aware that slipping up is part of the process, but I'm not ready to stop yet. However, I can take steps towards being able to stop - for example, I could try and see what else I can use to cope with stuff.
With truths held back, with foolish hand and foolish-fond heart and rich in pity's little lies - that is how I used to live amongst men.
It's a yes and no answer from me too. If I didn't have to consider the consequences it has on my friends and family if they ever find out then there is no way I would EVER consider stopping. But, since I have to consider my family and friends...it's a "I'll try, but I don't expect it to get anywhere so it's really just a show".
i'm stopping for the moment. because im going away and i need to be able to not wear gloves. my mum will get suspicious. lol.
but to keep the pressure off, i can go back after.
So if you wanna burn yourself remember that I love you
And if you wanna cut yourself remember that I love you
And if you wanna kill yourself remember that I love you
Call me up before you're dead
We can make some plans instead
Send me an IM, I'll be your friend Kimya Dawson - Loose Lips - Juno Soundtrack
I would like to stop some forms of SI, yes.
But I doubt I could cope without it, so no.
Yeah... I can't really see a future without SI, despite, one day, wanting to stop completely.
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Whether I ever stop or not isn't a priority right now. Good or bad, I've come to a truce with SI. I've accepted my cutting, and come to terms with the fact that it's likely to continue for some as-yet indefinite period of time. I don't think of this as a negative conclusion, though. I think, before I can ever seriously consider quitting, first I'll have to come fully to terms with myself as I am, without faltering or hiding things.
The friends who want me to stop the most are the ones who claim they've self injured before. The ones that haven't told me they're here for me, and asked me if I would ever stop...and I just said I would some day.
But I lied and it got me thinking.
I don't think I can live a life without some form of self harm.
Do what you love to do, and you'll never work another day in your life.
I do not intend to stop self-injuring. I intend to rid myself of the feelings and circumstances that make me feel the necessity of self injury. If I can not regain my confidence than I will never stop. I wish that I did not need it, but it is my reality at the moment and wishful thinking will do nothing for me. I need to change my attitude before I can stop, I have a lot of work to do before I will reach that stage.
I used to feel the same as you, but have now been over six months free. You have to be ready to stop in your own time and only you will know when that time is right. Take care
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
I want to stop. I've given it a go before and lasted a year or so. I think that it has a lot to do with my current state of mind. If I start to feel better, it is likely that i'll stop.
I didnt want to stop for a long time. Quite simply it worked for me. Then it took over and I was in A&E all the time and it was scaring me. I thought I was out of control but I slowly learnt that in actual fact I did have control.
I was forced to stop when sectioned but shortly after discharge I started again.
And then may last year I just decided I was ****ing fed up of it! It was taking me so much effort- the mental preparation, trying to get it "just right", taking care of it properly etc. I learnt that however deep I cut it was never enough, nothing would satisfy my need. So then I made the conscious decision to stop and I am a week away from one year free. I have had a few slip ups in that time but nothing significant.
Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back, everything is different…
you once called your brain a hard drive, well say hello to the virus.
i want to stop SI..i've been trying to stop but maybe i'm not trying hard enough..i couldn't get it out of my life yet. and whenever i try to not SI, my depression returns.feel stuck, but at least i'm still alive and i can get out of bed and go to work.
I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna hurt myself
I just wanna be a Better Person
i dont want to stop, but i know that if i dont stop soon, its pervade into my life too much for me to handle, and ill either do something drastic, or ill just hace to face that stopping would have been a lot easier had i dont it earlier. the problem is I REALLY dont want to stop.
I love you Kirby. You're the best dog I'll ever have.
i have the intentions to stop, but it's just so hard and i feel that i don't have that type of strength, so i just don't bother even trying to stop. although like when i have my family of my own i don't see me doing it still, but you never know. i guess i just assume someday it's going to just go away.
"would someone care to classify our broken hearts and twisted minds, so i can find someone to rely on,
and run to them, to them full speed ahead."
-paramore
