Goody-two-shoes, hides depression well, no scars on arms (what's with everyone and arms? I don't get why SI is only supposed to be on arms), clean cut, have friends, can be very happy (usually I get really depressed the night after though), supportive mom.
arms, lol. i used to cut my legs too, but it was harder to stop the bleeding and for some reason the healed cuts all went this reddy purple scar thing so it was harder to hide.
So if you wanna burn yourself remember that I love you
And if you wanna cut yourself remember that I love you
And if you wanna kill yourself remember that I love you
Call me up before you're dead
We can make some plans instead
Send me an IM, I'll be your friend Kimya Dawson - Loose Lips - Juno Soundtrack
YOU CANNOT COMPARE YOUR HURTS AND PAINS TO OTHER PEOPLES HURTS AND PAINS (and i'm saying this with sooooo much love to you)
ok, that's encouraging - I feel a lot better about the whole thing now, and like I can start to tackle it instead of getting distracted over how miniscule my problems are...
But I wear jeans all the time, and I have so few long sleeves :/ I have something that's very obvious and below the knee right now, and nobody has noticed before, even my mom. And if there was something on my arm, the sirens would go out (meaning mom would panic)
I'm such a people pleaser, ugh. Maybe another contradiction?
ok, that's encouraging - I feel a lot better about the whole thing now, and like I can start to tackle it instead of getting distracted over how miniscule my problems are...
:( i really hope it did make you feel better and not worse. Oh and sorry if i was being harsh or something because i totally was not trying to come off that way the all caps was just my way of getting my point across totally not yelling.
But if i did help you a lil bit i'm glad :)
Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, i think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat
-Mother Theresa
I hold a high image. I took 23 uni credits in high school. In uni I have a really high GPA and am in psychology honors society. Last semester all my grades were in the A range. Also most people think I’m happy and that I really have my life together. My degree I’m working on will allow me to counsel people. I’m a Christian.
but... nothing I do is ever good enough. I still feel worthless at times. I’m not very confident and I often doubt myself. None of the above really makes me feel better for longer than a few days. I’ve dealt with depression and bits of anxiety all my life.
Forget the risk and take the fall if it's what you want it's worth it all
-Good grades
-Always smiling (or trying to fake one)
-Very likable
-Flirts with out realizing it (quite well actually >> <<)
-Never any form of abuse
Contradiction: I have a very low pain tolerance
but...
-I'm always anxious
-I'm surrounded by people with a variety of issues that I can't do much to help
-I just want to save the world, and in turn I fall to pieces
"You've used and abused me, but you will NOT destroy me!" Alice Liddell. Alice: Madness Returns
I hold a high image. I took 23 uni credits in high school.
You should be really proud that you were able to do that! I have to stay in school for an extra year because I cannot take a regular course load. They don't have the option to take uni credits in my high school, even if I could handle it though, too many arts and stuff here. Do they count as high school courses as well?
- I'm the "obedient, level headed, responsible" one in my family
- I'm studying psychology with the intention of being a counsellor
- I don't let anyone see that I'm depressed
- I went to a religious school
- I hate disappointing people
- I rarely argue with anyone
- Nobody ever abused me
Contradictions
- I don't have a high pain threshold, unless I'm the one inflicting the pain
- I pass out when I see other people's blood
- always smiling, or at least "OK"
- Athletic
- don't wear eyeliner [emo boy sterotypes *sigh*]
- not a 'wimp'
- "good" grades (3.85 i guess is good)
- going somewhere (apparently)
- parents still married 2 brothers no visable abuse (this I would beg to differ but what people see is...)
Don't really have much contradiction to the SI itself. I like blood, don't have issues with pain, don't get grossed out.
Just that if someone is pretending to cut i just can't watch
*edit* funny how male cutter and female cutter stereotypes are so far different...
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I hate watching anything in the least bit gory on TV.
I used to absolutely hate needles and injections and couldn't watch. That changed in hospital when I couldn't SI.
I love swimming and swam a lot before I relapsed. Now I don't think I can ever go swimming again. =(
Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future
that year by year recedes before us.
It eluded us then, but that's no matter - tomorrow we
will run faster, stretch out our arms further...
And one fine morning - So we beat on, boats against the current,
borne back ceaselessly into the past.
I never wear any 'emo' clothes, stylish clothes and handbags all the way for me :)
I am quite good at hiding my emotions and putting on a brave face
No one has ever abused me ( apart from being bullied)
Always seen as the class clown :)
Funny, loud, bubbly, blonde
People have said if they did not know i sh they would not think i would as i seem so happy and loving life.
Great friends/ family
People always talk to me about their problems
Cons
loved swimming cant swim now:(
I hate being caused pain to me by anyone except me
I dont like when on tv someone is having an op and there like cutting something. Yet i love blood, strange.
I sometimes dont know why i sh as my life does not seem that bad sometimes.
Nothing really bad has ever happened to me.
I have lots of great friends and an amazing family.
I don't particulary lack confidence in my looks.
I'm always sorting out everyone elses problems.
I never seem to fall apart.
I know myself.
I don't even know why I SI. It actually doesn't make much sense :/
- Have been sexually abused
- My dad is a drug addict
- Witnessed and watched domestic abuse
- Was emotional and mentally abused by my dad
- Was bullied for 7 years
- My family walked away from me
- I struggle with an alcohol problem
- I used to abused solvents
- I SI
However,
I can put on a front so that noone suspects anything is wrong. I SI to finish the pain that my abusers started.
Walt Disney
"Even miracles take a little time."
- The Fairy Godmother
"What do you do when things go wrong? Oh! You sing a song!"
- Snow White
"Always let your conscience be your guide." -Pinocchio
-I wear bright clothing
-I'm great at appearing happy or at least calm and sane...always appearing cheerful and pleasant was even something my boss commented on in my performance review
-I love to make people happy, I'm a huge people pleaser
-I'm in the top 15% of my class and take mostly A.P classes
-I work and volunteer at a therapeutic riding barn and I love psychology
-No one has ever seen any emotion other than calm, supportive and cheerful from me
-I pretend to be the strong one...even though I'm not
-Everyone thinks I'm amazingly level-headed and they come to me with their problems...I appear to never get upset or flustered by anything (another thing my boss commented on in my performance review)
-I really have no reason to feel as crappy as I do
-My sister is the one everyone worries about...funny how she's really fine and I'm really not...
Contradictions
-I hate to see others in pain and it breaks my heart to hear about others feeling this way and doing this to themselves...but yet I feel as though I deserve it. I will never be enough.
Me too, I'm not actually very good with pain either (when its not me) & I'm not keen on injections at all, i have a few peircings (im not emo or goth tho) and i fainted when the guy did my tounge! so weired really just got worried about getting it done i sapose -intresting thread idea btw
:( i really hope it did make you feel better and not worse. Oh and sorry if i was being harsh or something because i totally was not trying to come off that way the all caps was just my way of getting my point across totally not yelling.
But if i did help you a lil bit i'm glad :)
it for sure did. the caps were effective in the good way :)
-A christian since age 5; grew up in christian household; stable, loving environment w/ both parents, who are still married
-Lived abroad for two years, (on two separate occasions)
-Have loads of friends; always the dependable one, or the one they come to with issues
-Wicked sense of humour; always smiling, sometimes quite evilly. ;)
Although,
-I never feel close to God anymore
-I'm always alone and inside my head
-My jokes only deflect from what I'm really thinking or feeling
Contradiction:
-I can't stand pain otherwise
**I know someone else said it too, but this thread really does make me sad.
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Reason: spelling error
We all wear masks, and the time comes when we cannot remove them without removing some of our own skin. ~André Berthiaume
- I'm not 'emo'. I have had a period when I would dress in black only and wear loads of eyeliner and stuff, but I didn't cut back then.
- I can go on laughing for hours.
- My parents are still together, and they don't fight often.
- I have never really been abused, physical or sexual. When I was little my father used to hit me when I did something wrong, but he never does anymore. I think that was for me to learn I shouldn't do those things.
- I used to love the summer and short sleeved shirts, tank tops, etc. Right now I hate all of that.
- Even though I don't have many friends, I really love the ones I do have.
- I'm a Christian. I've been my whole life. I love going to church.
However:
- I've been bullied for years.
- I don't have many friends.
- I cry really easily.
- I have never been afraid of blood.
- My grades in school aren't good. They're just good enough that I pass..
- I'm just.. not good enough.
Contradictions:
- Before I started SI I couldn't stand pain, always crying and screaming at the littlest bit of pain. Now I don't care at all. I can take pain now, I can take blood.
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A hand above the water / An angel reaching for the sky
Is it raining in heaven - Do you want us to cry?
- I live with both my parents, who are still together
- I've never been abused
- I'm always smiling and laughing
- I'm a pretty successful fencer- top 10 in my age group in Scotland
- People come to me for advice because I don't judge and always cheer them up
- The friends I have are amazing
- I have a boyfriend
- I have good grades in school
- I never hurt anyone else, even in fencing I avoid hitting hard
However:
- I've been bullied for the last 8 years
- I watched my dad have a heart attack when I was 9, then spent months convinced he was dying as he lay in a ward with stroke victims who terrified me
- I spend every day terrified my dad has a hypo
- I'm a total weakling- I can't stand pain at all
- I've lost almost all my friends over the past year
- I always feel like I'm a terrible friend, sister and daughter
Contradictions:
- Sometimes I SI to stop the pain I'm feeling... even though it doesn't work
- I can't stand pain at all, unless it's me causing it
It is idle to dread what you cannot avoid.
Publius Syrus
