Triggering (Suicide) - Easier to give in?

[confused.com]

I really don't know why I'm posting this because I'm at the stage of not knowing if it's worth my while to try and get through this. I'm sick of pretending to people that I'm okay. I really feel like I can't explain what exactly is going on in my head. I feel like I can't find the right words to get accross to people how seriously low I am feeling and have been since Christmas. I almost feel like people don't take me seriously. I have got good friends but at the same time I don't feel that I shouldn't be putting all my **** on to them. The only thing thats been onmy mind is to cut, cut and cut even more. :(

[Horizon]

I can relate to the ambivalence of wanting to tell someone how you feel, wanting someone to really listen and get where you are at emotionally so they know how bad everything is, and then feeling guilty for feeling like you are burdening them.
Have you tried talking to your friends about this? Maybe they just don't know how to ask you how you really are, or they don't want to upset you. I felt the same way and a few weeks ago I wrote a letter to one of my best friends explaining honestly how I was feeling, and said that I felt guilty for offloading on her, and that I felt like a burden to my friends. And you know what? Turns out it was just my own insecurity. In fact, one of the first things she said after she had read it was "You are not a burden to anyone."
Maybe it's worth a shot to speak with a trusted friend and tell them you would really like to have open dialogue about some things that are on your mind?

[matt1904]

First of all, you are not putting your TIHS on anyone, I am your friend, and want to help you through this difficult time. You know where I am and hopefully you know can talk to me about anything you want to, I don't judge, I won't think your feelings or thoughts sound stupid or whatever you might think.

You don't have to pretend to me how you're feeling, I always want you to be honest and tell me how you feel.

You're kind, caring and yes it is worth fighting through this.
Don't give in hun
Love and hugs
xoxoxoxo

[Tig]

It sounds like you are at a very difficult point and I can relate to the feelings of not knowing whether it is worth it to try and fight it.

If you find putting it in to words difficult, do you feel able to use creative forms such as through a drawing, a photograph you have taken or other pictures you have seen.

x

[stella]

hi confused

it sounds like things are really tough for you. maybe it's time to stop pretending you're okay, and tell someone you aren't. it's really scary, but maybe it would help you feel less isolated.

have you got a counselor?

sending my best, let me know if i can help further.

XO

[xlaurenx]

Hun you arent putting any of your **** onto me or matt, thats a fact i love to help you out.

I know you tell me your okay etc but honeslty even when you say your okay, most of the time i know your not hun.

You have gone through so much , yet to get through your past and still be here , fighting shows a heck of alot of strength , even if you dont see it.

I love you so much its unreal. please be strong you can get through this.
lauren xx