Thanks Megan. I don't know how I feel atm. I am sitting here crying to excess, i've cut and i am still bleeding and i don't care, i just don't and nobody is around now, and i'm all alone, alone and i feel so much alone
I just wanna keep hurting .
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Are you tired at all?
I can definitely identify with the loneliness, I guess I feel the same at the moment, is there anyone you could call?
Try to think of the negative consequences of if you did hurt yourself more, I find that helps me sometimes, it's easy to get caught up in feelings and forget reality I suppose!
Not tired, have taken my nightly meds but I still dnt want any help. I dnt wanna wake up in the morning, I don't sorry - I have had enough.
I do love everyone on here I do, I am sorry if I hurt anyone - I am sorry, and I am sorry, but this is it, I am sorry, had enough, don't try and talk me different, sorry but now is it, the end and finito and I aint strong enough to keep going tonight, if my cpn calls tomoz, it is too late, fuk it all as I have had enough...
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
People care about you.
I know you probably can't feel that at the moment, but they do.
You can get through this, it is a feeling it's not something that you have to do.
You are strong enough, you're just scared and wanting to escape.
I wish I thought you would believe what I'm writing.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Bibidy out, I need to act now on someone, come on, come on, who is there, and who is willinfinf, bobody its pretty late and I should be dealing with other people, not crisis people. I need help now and nobody about, sorry but i need someone, wish someone was there, I know thats not possible now and I am sorrrrrrrry....
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
A&E I don't think will do me much good atm. Sorry, I do need help but I dont think they are it.
If I went to hosp, they might not let me leave.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
I think somedays and now, I am meant to be content with what I have now, but I will always want and need more.....
I need someone to talk to, perhaps not online atm, but someone soon.......
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
You are in a really difficult position that I've been in many times - knowing you need help but not wanting to go to A&E because you don't want to get put in psychiatric hospital!
It's ****, I wish there were more options.
I wish I knew what to suggest!
I think that if you are really really unsafe you should go to A&E anyway and hope that if you do get admitted, you'll feel better very soon and be able to discharge yourself.
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Hmm holly im worried by that email. please talk to us. Congrats for passing.
Im still not feeling great, went out with friend last night and we got something to eat, went back into the car to drive back into city center, i ended up getting really ill and nearly passing out, i had to make her stop the car because i was going to be sick and i didnt want to pass out, esp while she was driving. I couldnt even get out the car, i was so dizzy and i couldnt walk poperly, i stubled about the street and was sick - not my finest moment, anyone walking past would think i was drunk but i wasnt. She had to take me home, but on the way back she started the whole "are you sure you dont have aids thing" again, i was too ill too argue.
I still feel dizzy and i cant walk right, i dont know what wrong.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
mari - that sounds horible.. rekon should get yourself checked out it sounds serious ?
me - well i applied for counselling and they said nope your too serve were handing u back to the mental health advisor and your therapist... i just need someone to talk and talk at... why wont they give me that alongside my therapy. hate the system
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
I dont see the point, its died down a bit and my mum thinks mi might have caught her viral infection. It wouldnt explain however why i was fine one sec and nearly passing out the other.
Sarah that can hurt, i got kciked out of somethign before because i already saw two people and thought it was too much and someone else could be getting that help. Where did u apply for coluncelling, uni or heath system?
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
