I'm so sorry. I can't believe I didn't realize what was happening with you. I'm sorry I wasn't able to save you. And I hate myself for it. I can't believe I was so stupid and blind. We may have been young, but still I feel like I should have known.
It's ok if you hate me. Well no, it's not. But I can understand if you want to give up on me. I've never done anything to help you anyway. I'm sorry for that. You can leave me if you want to.
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me.
I'm tired of sharing my body and my head. I want it to be mine again.
I want to be able to remember a whole day.
I want to stop finding notes dragging up dirty details of my past.
I want those nights to stop going over and over in my head, playing out in front of me.
I'm tired of this. Can you hep me?
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
Thank you. You have no idea how much that means to me and how much i needed to hear it. Today is a really hard day for me and that's really helping me get through it.
I love you, you're the only thing keeping me alive.
I try to help you. You ignore me when you see me. You don't understand what taking on your problems has done to me. I was fine.
There are remarkable things all the time, right in front of us,
but our eyes have like the clouds over the sun
and our lives are paler and poorer if we do not
see them for what they are. If nobody speaks of
remarkable things, how can they be called remarkable?"
Im so afraid im going to lose you. part of me thinks you wont do it but then this little voice is shouting saying but what if she does.....then i feel panicked and scared and incredibly sick. i dont want to make it about me coz i know its so much bigger than me but i cant imagine not having you there. :(
Please put me back together.
I'm afraid that it's too late though.
I'm broken.
Do you even want to try and fix me?
I'm not sure.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
Dumdedumdedum.
Doing quite well.
One fat day is allowed, but stop now.
Summer's not long away and if you're fat for prom, something unfortunate might stop you going.
-I can't make the music loud enough to drown anything out, to drown you and your fucking brother out. Is that what you had planned all along was to screw with my life? To ruin EVERYTHING? To ruin me? Well, you succeeded. Congratulations. -Why aren't ANY of you three talking to me? What did I do now? I'm not even there to physically do or say anything to you guys. I could see why for T and C but you R, why? You guys have no idea how hard it is being here. -R, When are we going to talk about that thing we both have done/do? I need my friend back, where are you? I've tried talking but what? Am I not good enough for you now that you discovered? I've tried to hold off and I was doing well but I'm screwing it up big time here. -I hate myself so much right now that every step, every word, every movement, every thought is drawing to hate for all of you as well.
"You are imperfect and you are wired for struggle, but you are worthy of love and belonging." -Brene Brown
~I want it like it was before with us, before we dated, can you do that for the last 4 months that I'm here, please? and don't hate her, she's nice to me, I don't like the person you're dating but whatever makes you happy.
why do I keep wishing for the old you when I know she's dead and gone?
come back to me, friendwise, please?
~sweet dreams my love, I love you. <3
more then you could ever know
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I love you truly.
