Can't move. can't speak.

TheHeroYouHate · 01-02-2010, 04:19 PM

I am too sad to move or speak.
I really don't know how to fix this.
The most I can do is sit at this keyboard all day.
I need to ring my care co ordinator but how can I do that when I can't speak?
Everything is too slow.
I have 2 appointments tomorrow and I really can't see myself being able to go, even though this is when I need the help the most.
Does this happen to anyone else, and how do you fix it?

crazykat · 01-02-2010, 04:26 PM

Is it possible to be able to email your care coordinator instead of ringing her if you feel unable to do that? Hang in there hun, you can get through this

TheHeroYouHate · 01-02-2010, 04:29 PM

I can't email her :/
We only talk by phone and face to face.
Thankyou for the reply :]

tamobhuuta · 01-02-2010, 04:39 PM

could someone else email her for you? i hope you manage your appointments tomorrow

TheHeroYouHate · 01-02-2010, 04:45 PM

Well, the only way I could get someone to talk to her for me would be if i talked to them on the phone, because I don't have an email address for her or anything.
It doesn't matter I guess, I'm so angry with her I don't really want to talk to her, it's just she's who I call when everything goes to ****.
Reaching out for help seems a little ridiculous when there isn't anything anyone can do.
But I guess that's what I'm doing here.
Woops!
Sorry.

88shelz · 01-02-2010, 05:46 PM

can you arrange for someone else to give her a ring on your behalf?
i understand the feeling of everything being so slow. its an awful feeling tha i cant get to grips with but it does pass.

tamobhuuta · 02-02-2010, 04:23 PM

no, it's ok to ask for help. how are you today?

TheHeroYouHate · 07-02-2010, 03:00 PM

Sorry I didn't reply sooner.
I actually ended up being admitted, but I regained the ability to speak yesterday and have been annoying nurses ever since :D

Sigma · 07-02-2010, 03:48 PM

when things are really bad I can't put words together either

glad you're able to annoy the nurses!

Fry · 07-02-2010, 04:19 PM

Are you feeling brighter now?
The not talking or speaking is catatonia I think. Something which happens during really severe depression. Am glad to hear you're talking again and feeling perky enough to annoy the staff! :)
xx

tamobhuuta · 07-02-2010, 09:52 PM

glad things are better now you're in hospital. take care of yourself xxx

TheHeroYouHate · 08-02-2010, 05:54 PM

Thanks everyone.
They let me out.

ThinkingofRecovery · 08-02-2010, 08:40 PM

Have they put in place some extra support to help you?

TheHeroYouHate · 09-02-2010, 05:52 PM

No.
I'll probably end up getting sectioned tonight, but I did tell them that would happen and they let me out anyway so.
My team have given up on me and I've given up on myself, but that's fine.
:]

Fry · 09-02-2010, 05:57 PM

It's not really fine is it. What have you planned that will get you sectioned?
Why do you want to hurt yourself? (or worse)
Why have you given up?
xx

TheHeroYouHate · 09-02-2010, 06:19 PM

Just my usual stuff.
It's okay, you don't need to reply.
I've given up because my brain doesn't work properly and I hate this, I was on a section from september- start of january and I thought I was better, and getting on with life, and now this ridiculous 'conversion disorder' stuff has happened and I just feel like it's pointless, it's one thing after the other and it doesn't get better.
My care co-ordinator was in ward round yesterday (not for me, there is usually a woman from the CMHT there but she was ill so my cpn was standing in) and she knows me, she knows me so well, she knows how I feel and what I'm thinking and she didn't try to stop it.