Tell Your Secrets! And Be Honest!! - Page 175

Strawberry.Bananas · 29-01-2010, 10:45 PM

I want to die now please.

DestroyMe · 30-01-2010, 01:08 AM

part of me misses you more then I let on and I'm an ass because I hate to show it

TheSuffererComplex · 30-01-2010, 10:34 PM

3 months. I gave up.

Scars · 31-01-2010, 06:25 AM

I made it through yesterday with no cutting.
Will I make it through today??
I haven't eaten yet.
Don't think I'm going to.
But, I'm alive. Hurting....but alive.
And no one even knows.
My nightmares are getting so bad that I'd do anything to make them stop.
Last night, I needed sleep, but I was too scared to do it.
I took pills that cause drowsiness. I fell asleep quickly and had no dreams, just like I knew I would.
I think that's how I will sleep from now on.

hope.is.overrated · 31-01-2010, 08:56 AM

I am afraid to seek for help and go to see a therapist... I don't want to loose whta I have, I don't want to stop being what I am and I don't want to stop doing what I do...it's all I have and I am too old to change

charlieglasgow · 31-01-2010, 10:13 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lacrymosa

I lie to people every day.
And they believe me.

me too.

charlieglasgow · 31-01-2010, 10:14 AM

i liked him for a long time. when they got engaged, i went in the bathroom, curled up and cried.

DestroyMe · 31-01-2010, 08:37 PM

I'm terrified of what she thinks this is gunna lead to, I don't want to date her again

TheSuffererComplex · 01-02-2010, 06:49 AM

my roommate knows... im scared.

~flutterby~ · 01-02-2010, 01:26 PM

I know it's bad, but i actually want this.

Scars · 01-02-2010, 10:36 PM

I broke down two days ago...
I cut. And I bled.
The next day I did it again.
Tonight, I will be strong.
Maybe???
4 days without eating.
Hope??? It's pointless.
I'll never get better.
Even if I do, what will I be? This is how I've been. This is how I created myself.
Broken, depressed, hurting, and self inflicting.
Always. I cannot remember a time when I wasn't like this.
There will be nothing left of me. I'll have to re-create myself. I'm not ready for that.

Second Chance · 01-02-2010, 10:44 PM

Fuck this meal plan. It won't work.

hirple. · 02-02-2010, 09:18 PM

I'm not sure that I want to stop. I don't want it to carry on, but stop?

I can't survive without it. It's not living, I don't live anymore. I just survive.

-Shae-Lynn* · 02-02-2010, 10:14 PM

I think I like cutting too much to stop.

That scares me more than the cutting.

DestroyMe · 03-02-2010, 12:58 AM

I'm eating and I hate it,
I'm not cutting and I hate that more

I need something, anything to take this dark massive anger out of me..I think I'm going to slip tonight
and eating? no, not anymore

I'm sorry...

Scars · 03-02-2010, 04:56 AM

After 5 days of not eating....I ate today.
And I threw it all back up.
:/
I cut again as well.
And I told my cousin about everything I'm doing.
Mistake?
Not sure yet.

Commoner-Kou · 03-02-2010, 05:20 AM

I think. No, I know. I'm falling in love with my best friend. Or maybe, I've already fallen in love with her.

PoisonedApple · 03-02-2010, 08:11 PM

I hate that while I'm not eating right, it isn't for y own reasons but because my jaw hurts to much to open it even enough to eat pudding or drink something.
I am also angry that while I feel the urge to cause pain, the pain I'm in is not my own causing.

I'm kind of mentally battling back and forth if I want to stop eating and start cutting or not and this isn't helping any. It's making it harder to fight and I hate it. It makes me angry and sad and on the other hand sometimes I don't think I care anymore. Fighting is too hard.

DestroyMe · 04-02-2010, 01:27 AM

I cut last night

and my eating is shit..again

and..I don't care anymore...as long as it makes me feel real I don't care, because I don't feel real anymore
maybe I never did

Ghost Dude · 04-02-2010, 01:35 AM

I don't think this will end well...