just needed to tell someone *trigger*

[Amaranth]

I cut my thigh on tuesday, it wasn't shallow. I haven't been able to tell anyone, but I feel I needed to get it out. Its really sore. Part of me is kind of hoping it will get infected and part of me is scared that it will, its strange. I'm really sorry, but I had to tell someone. I don't want to do this again, it makes me so tired, I just want to get past it and leave all this behind

[Horizon]

Don't be sorry - if it helps to talk about it, then it's great that you can get it out here, at least.
Do you have any professional help that could assist you in fighting self-harm?
I can relate to the internal debate about the infection aspect, in fact I was thinking that earlier today while at the grocery store in the first aid aisle. Are you taking care of the injury?

[Amaranth]

Thanks Facet, I don't really cope well with professional help, I've always just gone it alone. I think the cut is ok, I've mostly been using antiseptic cream and covering it, it's only occassionally that I've been just leaving it open, I'm keeping an eye on it though.

[Gone.]

I try to do things alone as well. That just makes it more difficult.
Clearly it isn't necessarily working alone and, much as it goes against the grain, it might be time to try and access some help. Going it alone tends to mean that you bottle things up and, as time goes by, that just means that you get closer and closer to exploding (in a metaphorical sense).

I'm glad that you are keeping an eye on the cut. Make sure you treat it properly.

Do you know what made you cut on Tuesday?

[Amaranth]

I'd been feeling quite low and fragile recently but I'm not sure why, then on Sunday I had a bit of a disagreement with one of my friends, it wasn't anything particularly big but it kind of came to a head on Tuesday - I think it was just the straw that broke the camel's back. I think a few minor things have been building up over the last couple of weeks and it probably all got a bit much