Okay, so recently I forgot to take my anti-depressants, and then just never continued them. It was irresponsible of me. I saw my doctor to discuss this (and the possibility of coming off them) and she said I should continue them for 6 months and if things went well we would then discuss it again - so, next year.
I had every intention of continuing my medication for the six months to prove that things were fine and I could come off them next year. But, I didn't. I forget and forget and then I remembered - finished one packet and just, didn't open the next.
I feel like an idiot. But also, things have been great. I've been a year & a half free of self harm, completed my first year of uni, overcome a binging relapse and etc. It's been good. I feel like I don't need medication, I'm reluctant to go back on them because I hate re-staring medication once it is out of my system.
I don't know what to do. I could either
a) start taking the medication (again) despite not being on it for weeks, and try my best to keep on it until next year
b) go back and tell her that i'ms truggling again with taking it, but also, that i have been coping, and i feel my moods are normal. They're not too depressed but they get unhappy - but i can deal with it. I feel "normal".
Hmm. I suppose, I just need some reassurance/advice.
[I know, I've been silly.]
Last edited by Snow White. : 18-12-2009 at 12:29 PM.
I think that if you feel able to continue and cope 'normally' without your medication then you should do so. But. How long ago was it that you stopped it?
It may be that the medication still has some resemblance of a level in your system and that it may be a different story once it's drained out.
I'm all for people avoiding meds unless they're completely necessary. I don't think it's stupid to 'forget' them either or want to be able to do this for yourself :)
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You should definitely tell the truth Aimee, that's the only way that you can move forward with things. You're only going to keep beating yourself up about what you are doing if you continue to hide what is going on. I hope you get something sorted out. Take care.
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Thanks guys, I certainly feel I am going to have to suck up my pride/embarrassment and be honest. I've not been seeing her for long so I do feel like I know what is normal for me and what is not, and the depressed feelings, I understand those and also lack of those. Hopefully she will understand that, too.
I think that if you feel able to continue and cope 'normally' without your medication then you should do so. But. How long ago was it that you stopped it?
I can only assume it's about a month.
I am hoping she will trust me & my feelings on this. Every other time in my life when I "stopped" my own medication I knew it wasn't right, saw a doctor, got back on them. But this is different - I feel it was right, but still saw the doctor and did try but it didn't stick. And I think it didn't stick for a reason, and I am confident I no longer need them (and furthermore; if I did start to feel depressed inb the future, would not hesitate to see her again) and I think that works in my favour too.
I've made the doctors appointment for tuesday! Thanks for your support <3
Doctors today!
The more I think of it, the more I am confident that this is the right thing, and I need her to trust me on this one. Nobody knows me better than myself and I know this is the right thing, and if not, I know I can rectify it too. We shall see how it goes (she was rather reluctant last time, and oh, I'm so nervous)
Ahh, I'm the same way with my meds I don't even understand why. I forget to take them, then I just flat out stop. Unfortunately I have a court order requiring me to take mine :(
I hope everything works out with your doctor! *hugs*
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Thanks for the support (& Jess if you have a court order then I suppose they're still serving a purpose for you?).
Just got back from the doctors. We started by just talking about the holidays, she caught up on how I was doing re:food and my mood, family, etc. And she said "wow, you've come such a long way since we met" which was back in august, and I smiled and she asked how the medication was going, and I told her how I did try to take it but then kept forgetting, and now I believe it is right for me to come off it. I thought I would have to beg & plead but I didn't - she completely agreed! It was so amazing & helpful to me.
So now I am no longer on my medication. We discussed how I should look out for symptoms and if I feel any of them to go back and visit her immediately, and I am so confident I can do that. This feels so happy & unreal, but good unreal, like the beginning of something amy-azing.
:)
Oh - she also said she was very glad I told her! Which made me smile, too.
Last edited by Snow White. : 22-12-2009 at 03:20 AM.
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