OK, so I've been restricting myself for a while now - not letting myself eat for a few days, then just a few hundred calories when I do eat.
But I just purged for the first time, and kinda liked it in a weird way.
I want to keep doing it.
I don't know, I guess I just need some support and stuff?
x x x
p.s, sorry about the random full stop in the title, my laptop is being a bit funny
Last edited by GiveMeHellKid : 07-08-2007 at 11:08 PM.
Reason: wasn't finished and my computer messed up
It doesn't sound like you've been making things very easy for your body recently.. =[
I hope that you get out of the mind frame of 'liking' purging soon, as it can be really dangerous for you.. Check out some of the posts on this board.. It can be a really horrible illness to get involved in and I really hope you don't get into it.
Is it because you want to lose weight?
If so - could you find another way to do this sensibly?
You're probably putting your body under strain and the lack of food is going to have an effect on your mood and physical health if it carries on for too long..
PLease try get out of this now while you can. it's a very dangerous thing to do and won't do you any good. I know it won't be easy but maybe you could get some help with it? We're all here to support you, I hope you'll be ok. You don't need to do this, I'm sure you're fine just the way you are.
All I can think of to say is that purging can mess you up really bad and really quick. Your nails will look gross, your throat will virtually start rotting, and it will cause you a lot of pain. All that acid coming up over and over again...well, its acid, which burns stuff away, like your insides. It's just not really worth it in the end.
I'll keep your memory vague, so you won't feel bad about me...I'll say the things that you said sometimes so it reminds me. -Finger 11
Purging isn't a good thing to get into, believe me it's not fun and it's really hard to stop.
I'm guessing you liked it because it made you feel better and less guilty about eating? That doesn't last for long, the more you start doing it the more digusting you start to feel about yourself, and smelling off sick all the time? Not good.
It causes loads of health problems, both internal ones and then stuff you can see such as puffy cheeks, rotten teeth, bad skin, making your hair fall out. In my opinion, there's not much point trying to make yourself feel better about yourself by being thin when you've wrecked your face trying.
You're already doing a lot of damage to your body with restricting, so I agree with nikaroo that you should at least think about getting help with this, before you damage your body more.
purging feels alright when you first start, but it's very easy for it to get out of control and then it's a living nightmare. Imagine throwing up 10/15 times a day... how exhasted you'd feel, how it would get in the way of you living your life... that's a problem you really DON'T need. Please stop while you still can, even if it's hard, because believe me, it'll get harder to stop, and more severe a problem the longer you carry this on.
