I've had my worst relapse yet, I feel like s**t, I don't want to stop cutting but i told my boyfriend I wouldnt cut tonight and i already have, the first thing i did when i woke up was cut and the first thing i did at home was cut, i spent the day finding odd bits of stationary to hurt myself
I emailed my old chams worker to see if she knew of where I could get help and she just asked me if i had looked at my wrap plan and gave me helpline numbers.
I really need to cut some more, its like i've gone back a year and am right back to the person I was when i was at my worst.
I need help badly but don't know where from (cant use helplines as no credit)
Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.
Harriet Tubman
just because you slipped up doesnt necessarily mean that you are back to where you started. because you have already gone a year without this. that means you can do it hunny. you can dont give up yet. :)
Hi,
thanks for your replies :)
Tig, yeah I'm too old to use childline, and don't really like the whole helpline thing because I feel rather uncomfortable.
Right now it feels like I can never stop it, I need to do it and I cannot get out of that mindset.
Again I have spent the whole morning in a meeting at work (got meeting in afternoon as well) and all I can think of is sh
Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.
Harriet Tubman
**hugs**
what's going on in your life- can you talk to your boyfriend about it?
Can you borrow money for credit for phone?
Although using a helpline may seem uncomfortable, if it can get you through the urges and not cut it might be worth the discomfort. Because you are worth it.
I don't know much about WRAP plans, but if you revisit it does it give you a place to start? The journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step......maybe that is yours?
Hope you are getting through your day.
~Happy tomatoes together we will be~
You say toe- may- toe, I say toe- mah- toe:
Let's call the whole thing- red
“It’s time to lead the third revolution, which is not to say we want to be at the top of the world, but to say we want to change the world. Because the way the world has been designed by men is not working. It’s not working for women, it’s not working for men,
it’s not working for polar bears.” Arianna Huffington 2014
Hi Bitomato,
the wrap plan which i cant get access to right now was basically about who to contact, most of those people have now left my life for whatever reason.
All the things going on in my life are positive right now which mkes it all the more hard for me to accept i guess.
Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.
Harriet Tubman
What distraction techniques worked for you in the past?
How about the people who are still in your life like your boyfriend? Can he help you make a new support plan?
~Happy tomatoes together we will be~
You say toe- may- toe, I say toe- mah- toe:
Let's call the whole thing- red
“It’s time to lead the third revolution, which is not to say we want to be at the top of the world, but to say we want to change the world. Because the way the world has been designed by men is not working. It’s not working for women, it’s not working for men,
it’s not working for polar bears.” Arianna Huffington 2014
Usually i just play stupid games on the internet...i dunno im really not in the mood to talk to ppl tonight, i'm tlking to my boyfriend at the moment but dont feel able to go indepth about it all
its not really helped by my old chams worker saying what caused you to self harm in an email and never getting back to me...fair enough not getting back to me but did she have to ask questions about it
sorry im just in a bad place right now, tempted to take a day of work but i dont think that will help me any
Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.
Harriet Tubman
Hi thanks for your replies :) they really mean alot
I've been talking to my boyfriend on msn for most of the night now still really want to cut and have the feeling i will but at least im talking to him bout it all
And i get to see him this weekend yay
Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.
Harriet Tubman
