Haven't been taking my meds, was an accident at first but now I'm way out of control. Haven't slept alot. Have memory loss of what I did last night. Physically shaking, constantly moving. If I start talking it's hard to stop. I'm agitated with people talking to me...they talk too slow. My mind is spinning. I can't concentrate on school work. I apparently started my own fashion trend with the stuff I'm wearing. Not hungry. I can't remember what else I was going to say here. I know it is bad. I don't want to take my medications now....they will help...but I also like half of what I'm feeling. I'm REALLY confident and could care less of what people think of me. I like it. The other half I don't like. Irritable, jumpy, cycling of thoughts through my head...just stop the thoughts, PLEASE!!! I don't know what to do. I'm so confused.
I think you should re-start taking your meds. I understand completely you liking half of the symptoms you are experiencing (I have bipolar too as part of my dx) but the other half is risky and you could end up doing something dangerous because your judgment won't be up to scratch.
You need to sleep and eat and help yourself slow down. You could end up getting yourself into debt but worse still if the mania escalates which it probably will, and fast - you'll go psychotic.
Please take your meds and arrange to see your psych asap.
xx
it souunds like ur on meds for a reason, and u kno its not normal for everything to be spinning, and i can understand that it has its advantages, but i think u should start taking them again-remember to work ur way on to the dosage if uv been off them a lil while, or else go see ur doc for advice. x
Please start taking the meds again. I know when I stop taking my antipsychotics, I feel great for a week, then I end up in A&E or with the police and I get sent to psych ward where I have to start all over again.
Can you get an emergency appt with your psych? If so, I would do so immediately.
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Had enough sense to realize that I was becoming disconnected with reality and took one of my antipsychotics last night, helped me sleep for a few hours. Didn't take any other meds. Have started to get twitches/involuntary muscle contractions. Don't know if it's withdrawal or seizures as I haven't been taking my anti-seizure meds. Not good. Still like part of what I feel. Though I can feel myself slipping, like about 95% doesn't think I need meds. Trying to fight it but that part wins. Will again tell my family that I haven't been taking meds...last time they didn't care....thought I was fine. And haha have already been shopping lots. I get manic and it's always one thing I focus on....this time it's shopping. Think that my antipsychotic has calmed my thinking to a point, least I can talk in sentences now. Still have to constantly move, can't focus, can't remember alot. Had a exam today, COMPLETELY forgot everything but I really don't care if I fail...I do but I don't? Am on Thankgiving break now....like I said I can feel myself slipping away though. Like I'm here but not in control.
Keep taking your meds, all the ones you are prescribed including the anti-seizure ones. You don't want another problem added into the bargain. I think that's what you should focus on doing, taking them and maybe try and stay in while the spending compulsion is there as I said in my previous post about debt. Obviously it's something you want to avoid!
You are still here and you CAN take control back.
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Well took my meds last night and slept for, get this, 16 hours!!! I ended up have seizures last night which went on for hours but I couldn't go to the hospital because it's so expensive so that's why I took my meds. I also took them when I woke up. I'm not as manic now, my mind is calm and not racing. I feel more in control. But those seizures last night, scary really scary. I haven't had seizures in 2 years so the first one was scary enough then have repeated ones go on for hours - yea, not something I was expecting. I'm worried I might've done brain damage and I'm debating calling my neurologist...I just don't want to give up my drivers license for 6 months (if you have a seizure it's required by law to be stable for 6 months before you are allowed to drive again). I'm going to be staying in today with my family. Thanks for your words.
I agree with serendipity. Keep taking your meds! I'm glad that you've restarted taking them, and if it gets worse, I think you should talk to a doctor or someone who can help with this. Good luck!!
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you're epileptic? do you think maybe when you get manic that it might have something to do with your seizures? my uncle has epilepsy and he gets really agressive for a few days and thats when we know he's gonna fit in the next few days. i don't know why i think it...but sometimes i think epilespy and bipolar are similar in some ways...one reason i think this is because they can and do use anti-convulsants as mood stabilisers..i dunno maybe one of my wacky ideas..
anyway..please keep taking your meds...you're on them for a reason...and they will help reduce your symptoms...and you pay for them...get what your moneys worth ;)
hope you're ok x
