Triggering (SI/OD) - Why bother?

Everything Inside · 22-11-2009, 12:24 AM

Why bother giving up the one thing that makes you feel.
Gives you something to look after.
Actually makes you feel good.
Being ill so you dont have to leave the house, so no one has to see you.
Not that anyone wants to.

Who cares about the scars when your face if wrecked any way.
& your fat. Nothing fits you right.

Not even intelligent.

I want everything to go away, i want to lock myself up and not leave.
I want the pain to go away

in another life · 22-11-2009, 02:56 AM

*hugs*
I'm sorry you feel so bad at the moment hun! I don't really have any helpful advice, except to say you're not alone.

cathylovee · 22-11-2009, 05:00 AM

You bother giving it up if it's a bad habit because you deserve so much better in life. You need to find something to give you a better feeling as something to look forward to. Ofcourse people want to see you, dont say that because its not true.
what my friend says to me all the time:
"remember you are just another person on this earth but to someone you are the world"
your face isn't wrecked, scars will make it worse. If you are fat, do something about it! Work towards being healthy and skinnier to fit in something you like.

Dont sulk in a corner and complain about potential problems which can be solved if you take little steps to start.
You should list all your problems
and come up with solutions to each.
Better than just pitying yourself and feeling sad.

<3

Everything Inside · 22-11-2009, 11:14 AM

I am trying to do something about my weight but its hard.
I get bad Acne my doctor wont do anything about it and that alone has shattered my confidence.

I dont have time for friends, im either at college, doing college work or working, if i try to plan something it ****s up then people dont bother with you.

I found one good thing in my life (my boyfriend) but he can not be there all the time.

I just want to give up

Katiee · 22-11-2009, 03:24 PM

I do understand what you are saying, sweetie. *hugs*
Things must be very difficult for you right now.
Well done on doing something about your weight, make sure you do some daily exercise, even just a simple walk and eat a healthy diet.
Your acne can be helped by exercise and a healthy diet, also washing your face daily with some clean and clear is really good. If you've tired that and it doens't work, maybe see another doctor and ask about treatment? I use Dalacin T Tropical Lotion (which I got from the doctors) and my face is so clear now. It worked wonders for me. Also remember stress can cause acne. Please don't give up. Maybe you could plan a weekend to spend time with your friends? Go out for a meal or see a film or something? Hope you're alright. I'm always here. xo.

Everything Inside · 22-11-2009, 03:30 PM

I been to the doctor who gave me the lotion I used it for a year with no luck. everytime im at the doctors and i say it they say "o its just stress" about 3 years ish i have complained about it and that the answer i get. If im this stressed something must be wrong surly?
I don't really have any friends. The one i have is the other side of the country at uni. I miss her so much. Its not as simple as getting on a train and going up she has a huge amount of work on and her own issues.

Im just fed up of crying all the time over nothing and feeling so ****