jeez man ur just such a horny bastard! Just at the thought of girls you go crazy! I fucking get it! I know megan fox is hot and i know angelina jolie is hot and i know all those hollywood girls are hot. I KNOW THIS! u don't have to point it out in front of me it makes me feel ugly... and just when you started making me feel pretty again. apparently i'm not pretty enough for your fantasies huh? sorry im not megan fucking FOX!
all i want to do is get drunk right now, then call you and let all my feelings out cuz lets face it, as long as im sober they're not going anywhere. im afraid to let them go anywhere. u can't see me like this. ur hurting me so much right now! and u probably dont know it. while i'm awake at 4 in the morning ur off in dream land without a care in the fucking world...
i would have given you anything and everything you wanted.... now i dont know what to do anymore. if i spoke my feelings would you listen? do you care enough about me to listen?
i'm headed for a breakdown. time to cry myself asleep alone again. i hate crying myself to sleep. it sucks when you wake up the next day. your nose is all stuffy and u feel congested and have a major headache. eyes are red for like an hour... and then you remember what made you cry yourself to sleep and cry again... do you care that ur making me cry?
I'm so tired.
I hope you don't hate me.
I really can't help it. I'm trying so hard... I promise.
Sorry I'm such a burden.
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I've stopped taking my medication.
I refuse to be fucked around with anymore.
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I've started smoking.
Please don't hate me. I just need something else right now.
I love you more than anything, I want to curl up in your bed and just hold you and take all your pain away.
One day, I'm going to make you proud.
I'm sorry for not being able to accept I'm "ill" and that I need help...
Thank you for understanding, even when it's so difficult for you. Everytime you stroke my head when I'm asleep, a tear comes to my eye, cause I can't help thinking how much this is hurting you.
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Take it easy. Money is nothing compared to your health.
I'll look after you, I'll do anything you need, just say the words and I'll be round in a flash.
I owe you so much.
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I want to see you so much, even when I saw you last time and reached a really low point, just being there with you made me feel so safe and less alone.
I just don't want it to happen again.
You have been the most amazing friend I've ever had, you've stuck by me every second of the way, and I don't want to let you down.
Just seeing your name pop up on MSN makes me smile, cause I know you have come online to speak to me, and it really does mean so much, cause I feel I am giving so little in return.
When I'm well... We are going to have an amazing time.
Hopefully on holiday next year. =]
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I want to wrap you up in cotton wool, I know how much you are hurting, but come on love, suicide? Really?
You weren't serious, I know. I mean, who sends a suicide note the day before? I want you to be happy. Why can't you see what he has done to you?
You are smart, pretty, intellegent and you are worth so much more. Christ. At one point I wanted to BE you.
Just live. That's all you have to do, things are going to be okay. You know that.
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I think you are a cow.
How on earth are you going to be a paramedic/social worker when you slag off disabled people in a class full of people who want to help people?
You are low. Just when I catch your eye, my blood boils.
I never hate anybody. I'm not that sort of person, I can usually see good in everybody.
But you are nothing but a self-absorbed cow.
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I'm sorry about Friday, thank you so much for caring, and thanks for trying not to treat me weirdly. (Which fails, but at least you try) =]
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~Beauty without intellence, is a materpiece painted on a napkin.~
dont talk to him! he's a jackass and he takes the minds of innocent girls and destroys them. dont talk to him. nothing good will come of it.
and im jealous beyond belief. he talks to you.
god.
the irony. im writing a story about being strong enough to resist. and i all i want to do is head for the bathroom and cut. i think i will
I will get there. Someday
When everything feels like the movies, yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
I gave everything to you.
And you betrayed me. Just like everyone else.
I'm done.
I don't know what I want anymore. I want to be thin and my body doesn't matter to me. I don't know if I was ever even serious about getting better. I'm sorry.
I don't need help. I'm too fat to even get a diagnoses of anorexia nervosa, even though he says I have the symptoms. I'm such a fat disgusting pig. He wants me to accept help, he looked concerned yesterday. Told me ultimately I would die if I carried on the way I'm going. I'm not even ill, I'm too fat to have ana. Said to me if I drop more weight and don't accept help I would end up in hospital, being tube fed and be detained under the mental health act. He said if it came to that, he was doing it to save my live. Right now I'm not scared of death though, if it happens it happens, I couldn't care less right now, not that I'm suicidal.
'Cause I'll always remember you the same.
Oh eyes like wild flowers within demons of change ♥
I can't believe the rhumors you've spread about me
I called you because....because i missed you
I called you because....i love you
I called you because...I need you, more than you need me :(
I called you because...I was lost and afraid
I called you because...The tears wouldn't stop and you have been the only one who could ever make them go away
I called you because...the nightmares just got too much. I wanted to hear your voice. Your voice tells me everything will be alright, it comforts me
Now i no longer hear your voice.....I'm lost and i'm no one. No i no longer have your cuddles i no longer feel safe.
I love you. I hate you. I'm not angry at you. But i'm so mad at you!
You abused me, but you loved me, you wouldn't let me feel true feelings, but you loved me, you controlled me, but you loved me....You did love me right?
im scared of scaring you away. being too wierd and possissive for you to love me.
i know you care and i care about you too. but my brain works overdrive.thinks of the worst situations.
Thought I oughta bare my naked feelings
Thought I oughta tear the curtain down
I held the blade in trembling hands
Prepared to make it but just then the phone rang
I never had the nerve to make the final cut
I'm so weak I cant even face walking up the stairs. I'm still going to exercise tonight though. I'm still going to try getting away without eating tomorrow.
Sarah: Give me the child.
Jareth: Sarah beware. I have been generous up till now. I can be cruel.
Sarah: Generous? What have you done that's generous?
Jareth: Everything! Everything you have wanted I have done. You asked the child be taken, I took him. You cowered before me, I was frightening. I have reordered time. I have turned the world upside down, and I have done it all for you! I am exhausted from living up to your expectations of me. Isn't that generous?
You left me w/out warning. I'm supposed to get over it after 16 years. I thought you loved me. I thought I could count on that. You took everything from me. I had to leave my house and even give up my animals. All the confidence I had, came from you, which I know is wrong, but you took that from me too. You have a new family. I have no one. The loneliness feels like a dagger in my heart. Even when good stuff happens, I have no one to share it with. When I go to the hospital, I have no emergency contact to give them, no one I know will be there for me when I get home. Don't get me wrong, I don't want you back. No way...but you killed me and now, in my 40's, I have to start life all over again. Who am I? If I could make you feel what I have felt for the last year, I wish I could. Nothing can make you understand. You only care about yourself and your happiness and whatever gets in the way must be destroyed. I hate you for this!!I hate you for taking my life away!!
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