The Borderline Personality Disorder Thread - Page 256

Tig · 26-10-2009, 01:55 AM

That sounds really difficult and it's understandable that your moods have been becoming more and more erratic as it could be withdrawal from the medication. I really hope you will be able to get some tomorrow. *Hugs*

I watch television a lot as well, and lots of trash because I enjoy it mostly and find it a distraction also. I'm quite bad at having the TV on even if I'm not watching it because I just like the noise in the background.

Btw, has anyone else got the wrong time on their RYL or do I need to change my settings? I know this should probably go in the forum questions but I thought I'd ask here first! :D

26-10-2009, 01:55 AM

i hate the act she eels she cant talk 2 me because she doesnt want to make me worse. argh i hate this i ahte all of it and now i cant sleep

Tig · 26-10-2009, 01:57 AM

I hate that too Cheryl, though thankfully I don't experience it too much but on the occasions where I have I have felt really guilty and upset. Could you try talking to your friend and reassuring her that it won't make you worse? I think it's really nice she cares about you enough to be concerned and I'm sure your friend wouldn't want you to feel upset.
Hope you can get to sleep soon x

26-10-2009, 02:02 AM

yeh i tried that but she knows me too well. it wont though not massively any way. she says im not coping with my **** and im not tbh but i feel like im letting her down. its like she has been there for me so much and i wann a be there for her it doesnt help shes living at home and communting to her uni and im away and only going bk for dbt on a thursday so the distance is making it harder im like just over an hour away. oh god wat am i doing. think 2nite might be up on here 2much i got uni stuf and everythign else wizzing through my head.

Tig · 26-10-2009, 02:04 AM

You aren't letting her down. In the future the roles may be reversed and I'm sure if it was you in her situation you wouldn't feel that she was letting you down.
Sorry you have a lot of stuff whizzing through your head tonight, I hate that feeling. x

26-10-2009, 02:12 AM

she needs me now thats the problem. i dunno

Tig · 26-10-2009, 02:13 AM

Has she got any other support? x

26-10-2009, 02:18 AM

yeah and no.

ThinkingofRecovery · 26-10-2009, 02:22 AM

How do you know what is real? I need to sort through things so I know what to tell and not to tell my SW tomorrow. Thanks
x

26-10-2009, 02:27 AM

real in terms of wat

ThinkingofRecovery · 26-10-2009, 02:37 AM

In terms of what is "normal" and ordinary people experience.

I am struggling with intrusive thoughts and other "memories" in that I have no idea what are real and what are not. What if I'm not real?

xxx

Tig · 26-10-2009, 02:46 AM

I'm sorry I'm not sure what to suggest but I think you are real because if you weren't real I don't believe you would be able to post etc. Sorry, wish I could say something more useful *hugs* Good luck with your social worker xxx

ThinkingofRecovery · 26-10-2009, 04:07 AM

I'm scared of begin labelled.

I tried the plastic bag approach. I did it a couple of months ago alos.

I am pathetic, too weak too end it.

Sorry!

Tig · 26-10-2009, 04:36 AM

you arent pathetic, i cant do it either. *cuddles* if its any consolation I don't think many people could do it either.

Are you scared of your social worker labelling you? x

ThinkingofRecovery · 26-10-2009, 05:39 AM

I wish there was an easy way to end it.

I want it all to stop. Even if I tell her, the mh peeps don't take me seriously which is why I don't tell them anymore.

xxx

26-10-2009, 09:00 AM

i have that same problem chick

discovery_journey · 26-10-2009, 09:15 AM

am feeling really down
i hate this
i hate living
so tired
seeing support worker this morning and cpn this afternoon
blah blah blah
it's all such a waste of time

ThinkingofRecovery · 26-10-2009, 10:46 AM

Agedharmer, make sure you tell them how difficult things are and how down you are.
xxx

I have to see my SW today and not looking forward to it. It looks like it is going to rain and I wanted to walk there :(

discovery_journey · 26-10-2009, 11:05 AM

I hope it goes okay with your SW today Noreason. Hope the weather holds off and you're able to walk.

will try my best to let them know how things are. just think they are all bored of me. bored. bored. bored.

Tig · 26-10-2009, 02:05 PM

Hope your appointment goes/has gone well Carrie :)

Agedharmer - They won't be bored of you. I can relate to feeling like this though but I don't think they will be bored, it's their job to help/listen/support you and it's not your fault you are going through issues that have been around for a while. They won't be bored at all xx