Ferret, I am off work, signed off for another month and have a report saying I am off indefinitely. I am pissed off as work still want to meet with me and it really stresses me out. I have been looking for temp christmas shop work to see if I can manage a few hours a week or so but no-one wants me - over-qualified but under-qualified at the same time. I understand how scary the work situation is as I have worked since I was 16, even when at college, uni, etc.
Maybe you can post here and stick around for 2 weeks til you see the new GP. Outright refusal of meds is ridiculous, there are plenty of people on this thread with bpd who have found meds helpful to a degree. I think it is something you should definitely raise with your new GP. Do you think your boyfriend could go with you?
I know Laura has used PALS in the past so maybe that is an option.
There is no way you should be dx bpd and have no treatment plan. Have you tried to look up the NICE guidelines. You aren't getting appropriate help hun and maybe if you could just hang on to get it, things might change.
The boy as you call him, wants YOU, not someone else. He would be devastated if you weren't around.
Sorry, in danger of lecturing you when I am in such a ****ing state myself right now - hypocrite.
*hugs*
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
Mari, when is your guitar and music stuff due to be delivered?
My nephew (he's 11 now) has been playing for about a year and it is amazing how quickly you can learn enough chords to play around and manage the pop type songs like Snow Patrol, etc.
xxx
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
im just not sure i want to battle carrie, not sure i can face the idea of a different gp and a different cmht being the same, although my cpn is goign to tell them that i shouldnt be seeing community mental health services and so on, so maybe i wont get the chance to see anyone anyway
im sorry carrie, im so sorry you feel bad and you come here and find mebawling for attention,and that right there is why i dont have friends
I'm sorry so many seem to be struggling... me included,
I keep on being told that it won't be like this forever, however... that symptoms can get better... try and hold to that maybe???
I have a cpn and a support worker. I'm seeing them both tomorrow. Bloody stupid seeing them both on the same day, but they aren't around later in the week because of half term holidays.
I think I'm going to some meds and sleep again tonight.
just one person i thought was stable in my life told me that wasnt the case tonight. im scared i hate being away at uni sometimes.
uni life in general and my sport arent going particulary well. i know it sounds petty but my netball is one of the most important things and when i play below my best i cant help but hurt myself and dbt is getting harder and harder.
i dont now wat to do
Don't worry Ferret, I would rather be here posting replies than thinking about ****.
I know you don't want to fight but you need to. Just this one last final push with a new GP etc. It doesn't matter that your current cpn has a certain belief, if you tell the new GP re your sui thoughts etc, they have to look into finding appropriate support etc. It might be that they are much better than the cmht area you were in previously.
Why on earth do they say you shouldn't see cmht? In my area, when I tried to discharge myself from cmht, it appears GPs etc do not like to deal with peeps like us so cmht support is absolutely necessary.
Agedharmer, can you tell them how difficult things are?
I hope you manage to sleep.
xxx
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
lol... not gone to bed yet....
at the beginning of the summer my cpn gave me some info on an ED service, but I got really ill and didn't do anything about it.
i think i will ask her about the ED service again tomorrow.
but i guess, i find that if it's not my eating that's disordered then i'm cutting, if not that, i'm burning, if not that, i'm spending too much, if not that i'm drinking too much, if not that i'm OD'ing. Ya know what I mean??
feels like if I sort the eating, I'll just replace it with something else that's damaging.
because i should be doing specialist services which she told me to ask about and when i told her the gp didnt know but would look into it she called me a liar, because obviously i have bdp so must be a liar. i havent ever lied to them. how can i fight that carrie? i dont have the energy to fight against the system, i can barely fight when im happy and healthy.
I read that not everyone's entitled to CPA, since they've changed it to just enhanced now... I might have got that wrong... I'm not sure. But if you have BPD you should be treated properly... I'm being vague, I can't remember exactly what the guidelines say but I definitely recommend you have a read through them and know what you're dealing with. Knowledge is power :) I got my IP psychiatrist with that one once.
I'm so sorry that everyone seems to be having such an awful time at the moment. I wish I knew what to suggest. It seems like everything is worse at the moment, and I don't know if there's some reason for this or if I'm just seeing it more at the moment. But my heart goes out to everyone and I wish, I wish I could be more helpful.
Um... that's ridiculous! As your care co-ordinator, she is the one who should be co-ordinating your care! She should be looking into specialist services for you; not you, not your GP. (Assuming your CPN is your care co-ordinator?)
agedharmer, I really identify with replacing one thing with another. I do believe it can get to a point where self harming behaviours can reduce, even if they don't stop completely. It's so painful to go through though? I hope you manage to speak to your CPN about the ED service.
ignore me im being silly sorted it out just things arent the same as they used to be but hey im just over exagerating. im the reason as im 2 unsafe or her to talk 2 me about her stuff.
Um... that's ridiculous! As your care co-ordinator, she is the one who should be co-ordinating your care! She should be looking into specialist services for you; not you, not your GP. (Assuming your CPN is your care co-ordinator?)
^This^
Laura, what's this re CPA, as mine is up for renewal and was supposed to sort with my SW tomorrow as I was supposed to have looked at my part already.
How are you doing hun?
xxx
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
