Triggering (Suicide/Sexual Abuse) - Can't take anymore (triggers all)

lozstar88 · 17-10-2009, 01:20 PM

I can't do this anymore, I don't want to be alive...I want to just crawl up into a little ball and die...

this world is too cruel and I want out...I can't even handle people looking at me sexually anymore....everything is so damn triggering and it just keeps happening over and over but with different people in a differe place...

NO MORE!

lostdoll · 17-10-2009, 06:52 PM

It doesn't make sense now, but you know you have to hold on, because things will get better eventually, and you won't be feeling this bad forever.

You mentioned people looking at you sexually. Are they saying/doing anything also, that makes you feel uncomfortable? A good old fashioned "NO" or "what are you looking at?" (depending who is looking at you) will draw attention to them, embarrass them and people around you can ask if you are OK and help you in that situation.

What do you find triggering at the moment? It's good to talk it through to help define what the problems are exactly so people here can offer you more advice and support.

Take care, stay strong, just find a distraction for the time being (even if it is RYL!) and just try to get through the rest of today.

brittasaur · 22-10-2009, 06:37 AM

I can understand a lot of what you're going through. I can't stand people looking at me. In fact, even seeing intimacy, or to have someone brush past my shoulder..it's all so completely nauseating for me. Recently I've grasped reality, and I know that I've been abused, and it's a constant struggle for me as well.

And I would probably be no help at all, but if you ever want someone to talk with or just to listen, you can PM me anytime.--Brittany

23-10-2009, 04:11 AM

I've also had problems with people looking at me sexually. I went through a really bad phase with that a while back. I agree, you need to tell them you're not interested. You have every right to be free of sexual harrassment, if that's what's going on.

*hugs* you can get through this. I know it's hard right now but things will improve. Suicide really isn't the answer. Hang in there. feel free to pm me if you need to talk.