Triggering (SI) - anyone else get mad like this?

[cryingcrimson]

Ok, so most days I view my scars as 'battle wounds' and that they show that i survived and blah, blah blah. But there are days, like today where i'm just so frustrated and angry with them and myself. i hate that i can't wear shorts cause the newer ones on my legs are still purple and i hate that people stare at me. does anyone else get like this, where one day they view the scars as something to maybe not be proud of, but you aren't ashamed of them, but the next day you just want to scream and push time back so you can go back and tell yourself not to ever start? ugh. i'm frustrated with myself today. the word 'why?' has decided to put itself on repeat in my mind. rawrg. ok, i'm done, just wondering if anyone else deals with these feelings too.

[Stellata]

Yep. I'm deeply conflicted about my scar too.
It helps me to find a middle ground - that I was exceedingly distressed and overwhelmed and out of control, and that it is understandable, knowing the place I was at in my mind at the time, that I would have created such a lasting scar. Not that it was the most healthy way of responding, but understandable given the circumstances. Everyone responds to extreme stress in their own way, and knowing that I can feel more comfortable with the result. Then I am neither proud of nor ashamed of my scar, it is what it is and I can accept that compassionately.

[whirlpools]

I feel like this too, sometimes. Scars fade, but never completely. I don't remember the last time I wore a skirt without thick tights. However, what is done is done, and those scars will fade in time and you'll find people don't notice them as much. Maybe it will help you to find a different way to express how you feel without using your skin as a canvas?

[Dan]

I don't feel scars are anyones 'Battle wounds'.

They're a sign that you used a stupid coping technique when you were in emotional distress. Nothing to be proud of, I'd say.