we all slack personal hygine when were feeling low.
and even in the highs becase it can seem irrelevant soemtimes.
so its ok.
the thing is when your feeling up to it sieze the moment.
try what you can.
doesnt make you disgusting its just how it goes sometimes.
mari - glad to hear your feeling a little better after getting thats all out.
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
i wear the same clothes alot without washing them, i think its more just a habbit than anything else, it was a bit annoying in student accom having to pay like £4 for a wash and thats not includin your cleaning stuff.
But youl find alot of people do that stuff so its nothing to feel bad about.
Heh i have bright pink, bright orange, bright yellow, bright green, and a pastel blue. Worth the money.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
no, thats the problem, i dont have anyone i feel like just turning all forms of communication off and ignoring the world i even hate my cpn (well not hate thats a strong word for such a drippy woman)
Sorry I havent been around, hope everyones coping ok
I've had an awful week where I just want to hide away from everyone and never see them again
i hate people
This ^^
Sorry for stealing your words ferret monster, but i was about to type something along the same lines.
I had my 2nd DBT assesment today, which was ok. But tough again. She said i scored 9 on the first thing.. and it's out of 10. So they are taking me on to it from what she said but they've gotta score todays to.
I'm making work fit round it, but that's another story. One because they're ripping me off and refusing to pay me for what was originally gonna be 53hrs a week... But i asked to go 'part time' which is still 33hrs but i have weds, fri and sun off.. So that's easier.
Erm.. But yeah because they're funding my level three they won't pay me!!.. Which isn't what she said originally, they've done it to all 6 staff! =/... Hmm. I dunno what to do.. I feel like i'm being used hugely!.
Anyways, Gonna go curl up in a ball and sleep.
even my boyf is managing to annoy me tonight, and that's rare!!. .
Hope you're all ok
xx
So do whatever it takes
‘Cause you can’t rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin’ stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side
Hi, I think I have BPD, but I cant be bothered asking my councellor cause we dont get on and he thinks there is nothing wrong with me! grr but thats another story!
Yeah, so i have many of the traits people explain on here, and i wish i could be diagnosed cause i am scientific so like to understand whats happening. And, It just happens to some people, doesnt help me!
Learn from the past, Hope for tomorrow, Live for today
TimeToDance is my napping buddy! :) Banarama! is my big sister :) My wee loon Oli is my personal help desk! :) Mercipourlevenin is a legend!!! :)
Love_Lies_Bleeding:Tinkerdebs:pastexpiration: *fairy*dust* all make me smile :)
Thanks for all you have done guys, you mean so much to me! :)
Mari - good choice colours :) One of my favourites I have right now is a really bright orangey/red, it is beautiful. I like bright ones.
Hey Ferret, hun. It's a while since we had a chat. I might be online later this evening if you want to log on to chat or msn. Sorry to hear that you feel so awful.
Em, that all sounds very busy and not quite right with your work. Maybe I misunderstood what you were saying. It's good about the DBT though.
Hey Zowie, sorry to hear you are struggling with personal hygiene, I know how flat it makes me feel.
Im-the-kid-that-falls. May I ask how old you are? As far as I am aware counsellors can't give diagnoses. In addition, it is really better that you don't self diagnose as many conditions have overlapping symptoms and you can have those symptoms without even having an illness/disorder. You need to go to see your dr and would prob be referred to a psychiatrist for diagnosis.
Me? I have managed to have a shower this morning at last. Hooray. I am sat here with wet hair which means I need to summon the energy to dry my hair so it doesn't end up looking really shitty :(
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
carrie - well done for showering. im having that battle at the moment were on 5 days now lol.
but well done your managed to do it and drying your hairs another mundane task... but you've started the process.
hope everyones ok.
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i e-mailed my therapist last night telling her i want to know whats wrong with me and im glad we only have 4 more sessions and ... eurgh i just shouldnt have said it all i was feeling angry and hyper.
but she replied and just told me to go to bed so now i feel ashamed that i did it.
whoop. dont you just love emotions:(
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
Sarah, I know you feel silly about the email but sometimes we can say things in that state that are true and had needed to be said but we had held back. She'll be used to people doing it so please don't worry.
Do you know what happens after these 4 sessions have finished?
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
Im the kid - You really need to try and go to the doctors and get help that way, because then you can get proper help and get a diagnosis. Like i say dont do it yourself because alot of disorders overlap each other so it can be easy for you to say you have something that you dont.
Ferret - Sorry to hear you arnt doing so well, is there anything we can do to help.
Lost - Can you ask them what happening and why they have changed thier minds?
Carrie - I do that with my hair, i can never be botherd to blow dry it, but its good you have summoned the energy to do one positive thing today.
Left - It may just be she didnt have anything to say to it, i mean the worst thing to do would be to send a sarcastic or mean email back, so she really did the right thing by not responding with that kind of emial. You shouldnt feel bad for it tho, ive done it loads of times and im sure other people have too. Its something that will be forgotten about by tomrrow.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
and thanks guys. i know i wouldnt have said those things to her if i had been thinking so maybe they needed to be said.. yeah.
i see her once now and 3 times when im at uni (through skype) by which time they should have passed me on to someone new on the nhs because my therapist works privately i cant keep seeing her long term its too expensive.
i got a call today saying im meeting with either hte disability adviors or the mental health liason person on the 29th. which hopefully will get the ball rolling.
but to be honest it seems pretty pointless. im just gonna manipulate them and not get better. but at least i can say im trying
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
I dont know, sometimes do you wonder why people like you?
I mean i can think im the most horrible person ever, maybe its just me but i can see nothing good in me that people would like.
Left - you never know how its going to turn out, as i say never say never, it might actully be a really postivie thing, and if it doesnt turn out that way at least you can say you tired, so dont feel hopless just yet.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
hey Carrie, well done on the shower, a shower always makes me feel better
just feeling very lonely and isolated and keep thinking to myself, since i was there when they needed me, why is everyone else so rubbish at being there for me? its fine, don't want them anyway, sharing leads to badness.
only just got up, i figured if i slept it would be evening sooner and boy would be home...
