Triggering (SI) - pressure

[lasttime]

I am at wits end. I tried to chat just before, but noone was able to offer support for me at this time.

I am all alone. I am so concerned about 'keeping it together' that i feel like i am fading into the background of life. My scars are a constant reminder of my past life, as I haven't self harmed for 6 months, which is great. But my urge is significant tonight. I wish there was someone I could talk to right now. Tonight is the worst I have felt in a while and it scares me, as i thought I was recovering ok. And now i feel somewhat guilty for allowing myself to feel like crap right now. I just want to stop crying. The part i hate the most is that I am not completely sure why I feel like this. I cannot pin point it to one thing, it's just a mixture of many pressures of my life and expectations i suppose. Why can't i just deal with them and let them go? I don't like who i am in this emotional state.

suffering slowly and brain perplexed..

[PassedExpectations]

Don't feel guilty for feeling bad, try going on the chat again, you can also just ask someone if they'd be willing to help you.

Maybe its hard to let the pressures and expectations go because you've internalized them, so they aren't from others anymore, they're from yourself too?

No feeling can last FOREVER though, so it will dissipate eventually.

Sorry that I can't say anything better to help.

[havealittlefaith]

*hugs* try not to feel guilty for feeling bad. its okai to feel bad. welldone on been 6months free thats amazing :) . sometimes there isnt a reason we feel like this and it sucks. i hope you feel better soon. be strong. take care. it will all be okai hunni. if you ever wanna talk feel free to pm me. *lots of hugs and more hugs and whatever else you need*