Sometimes.
when I think about you my heart explodes and I'm overcome with how much I like you. And I can think of is your face and kissing you and cuddling with you.
I've never felt this way about anyone else.
Did you feel anything when you found out? Anything at all?
Did you care or is this all just more paper work? More notes for you to read?
Do you know that I'm actually a person? a breathing, feeling, thinking person? Did you know I have a life and a world, do you know that everything has been distorted and I feel utterly lost. Did you know you're my care co-ordinator...that generally means you have to care to some degree.
I wish someone would look at me and say
"Wow, you've lost so much weight"
Last edited by NeonHaze : 23-07-2009 at 06:46 PM.
Sarah: Give me the child.
Jareth: Sarah beware. I have been generous up till now. I can be cruel.
Sarah: Generous? What have you done that's generous?
Jareth: Everything! Everything you have wanted I have done. You asked the child be taken, I took him. You cowered before me, I was frightening. I have reordered time. I have turned the world upside down, and I have done it all for you! I am exhausted from living up to your expectations of me. Isn't that generous?
I want you so much that it hurts, i know i cant have you and i know that you don’t want me. I hate that i need you so much. I want you to hold me, tell me that you love me. But i know you cant and you wont. Iv given up.
I don't even know who I am anymore.
I'm not sure I ever did.
Sure, I know my name, my date of birth, my favourite song, that I'm a self-harmer, that I'm a lesbian. I know all the labels and crap that life gives you.
But I don't actually have a clue who I really am.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
You can talk to me. Why don't you talk to me?
Why don't YOU use ME? It's a two way street.
You say you're not in danger but you don't need to be in danger to need help. Why do you keep things locked up? and if you don't talk to me, can you talk to somebody? Don't keep it all in.
You can trust me with anything. Don't feel you need to protect me.
I'll pull myself together okay? I want to focus on you now. I want you to be valued and supported. You deserve the world and all it's glories my darling.
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
you make me worse
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
I think i'm in love.
it was really nice spending time with you today even if was only little bits at a time. I really like you like i mean really really like you, but what hurts the most is you go home to her at nite and not me. I know you dont really have anything there anymore but still you go home to her. I want you to be mine and i mean that. I know what im doing is bad but that means your just as bad as me. You said you would never get in a car with me well guess what you did today baby! You made me so happy, i left work smiling not crying. When you kissed me today i got butterfly's in my tummy and ive not felt like that for soo long.
thank you for making me smile but please dont hurt me.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
You know, I remind myself of the Butterfly Effect.
The Directors Cut.
Where he goes back, to where he's in the womb, and kills himself.
Then it shows everybodies lives who he would have known, and how much better they were without him.
I honestly feel that way.
Whats gonna happen Friday? Your gonna come back, and see my leg.
I know how it'll go.
Me : Their only scratches their only scratches!!
You: Their not though. I thought you were handling this?
Me: *Silence*
You: *Gets angry because I can never bring myself to physically talk when Im upset*
Sarah: Give me the child.
Jareth: Sarah beware. I have been generous up till now. I can be cruel.
Sarah: Generous? What have you done that's generous?
Jareth: Everything! Everything you have wanted I have done. You asked the child be taken, I took him. You cowered before me, I was frightening. I have reordered time. I have turned the world upside down, and I have done it all for you! I am exhausted from living up to your expectations of me. Isn't that generous?
I want you to call me back. I hate that you're never home to answer the phone. When you go out with your friends, and leave me alone, you have no idea what it does to me. You make me want to cut by seeing your face, just because you're so much better looking than I am. I want to be able to tell you what happened that night, but how can I when you never make an effort to ask me
I feel alone, and that fucking bastard has taken everythign from me, besides you. But I feel you're fading away because of my actions. I dont' know what to do.
Isn't it amazing, How you always think you have nothing left to live for,
but when
you meet that one, true, love; everything turns around?
Wow. . .I never thought I would say this, but, hurt me. . .Do it again. . .Cause me the pain that made me hate you. . .R*pe me again. . .Punish me for all of the damage I've caused to the world. . .Go ahead. . .I wont stop you. . .Just hurt me, because I promised someone I wouldnt hurt myself, and I love him, so I dont want to hurt him. . .Can you do me that favor?? Can you punish me?? Can you make me bleed again?? Can you make me suffer for all of things I've done wrong?? Please??
Technically I guess it wouldnt be r*pe because I'm asking for you to hurt me like that again, but on the other hand. . .I dont want it. . .so it technically wouldnt be consensual. . .I dont know. . .
"I let my guard down, and you caught me by surprise" Sonic Syndicate
add me if you want. just let me know you're from RYL.
I'm scared I'm going to make today worse for you than it already is. I'm scared that I won't know what to say to you. I'm scared I won't know what to do. I'm really sorry.
I love you truly.
