On Monday i'm flying to Barcelona to go to the Benicassim festival in spain with two of my really good friends. I am really looking forward to it, but i am also a little worried. I have decided (for the first time in a fair few years) to just wear a bikini on the beach, rather than board shorts too.
Now although it has been a while since the last time i self harmed, and especially since i did so on my legs, the few scars that are there are the worst on my body and they are still very prominent. Luckily one of the girls that i'm going on holiday with knows of my past (though she doesn't know i still struggle with it at present), but the other girl does not. Although she is one of my best friends and i know i should be able to tell her if she asks, she is one of the most opinionated and upfront people i know. So she would not be one to hold back on the words if she thought i was stupid.
I know she might not notice but the prominant scars are those of words and letters so it's very difficult to pretend they were caused by a fall.
I'm just looking for some words of encouragement to help me continue down this path, as i really do not want to hide my body anymore, because the more i hide it, the more i seem to think i am allowed to self harm.
Thankyou in advancee.
Jane
(I thought this forum was the best place for this thread to be as it is positive, but if anyone thinks it'd be more appropriate elsewhere feel free to move it.)
