Triggering (SI) - wanting and needing

[riverdreams]

today has been one bad day
and i already cut once today

BUT

right now i want to cut so bad
i feel like i need to
i want to cut the anger out that i am feeling
i want to feel it i need to feel it

[Popple]

Has something happened to make today so bad?

[riverdreams]

yes

everything is just going wrong and people are being mean

[GrimmFaerieTale]

Heya. We're hear to listen, what's going wrong? What are people saying to be mean? x

[riverdreams]

everything in life is going wrong its all messed up and i hate it and i hate me
they are just saying stuff about me and to me not sure i can repeat what they said it was not very nice at all

want to need to have to may aswell just do it

there is no point in even fighting this anymore

[megzie1994]

There is a point! THERE REALLY IS! You wouldn't be here if there was no point in fighting this. You come here for support to fight this. You can do it! Be strong!! : )

[riverdreams]

im sorry

[Cazki]

*Cuddles you* I'm very sorry to hear that other people are being nasty to you. They are not worth getting upset over. Please dont let them get to you. Its not worth it. They are the ones in the wrong, not you. I realise that what they said is very upsetting for you and that its easier said than done to not be upset at what they said to you. Please dont hurt yourself. Its not worth it and you will probably regret harming yourself after. It could also make things worse.

They want you to be upset, please dont let them win. Dont give up, keep fighting. You can get through this. Are you able to share with us what they said to you? You dont have to but you can put what they said to you in a hidebox. I think it will help you to get what they said to you off your chest. Keeping it inside you will only make things worse. These people sound really nasty, im sorry for the pain your going through. You dont deserve this. Keep yourself distracted. I'm here for you.

Take care all the best Ian

[riverdreams]

right now i dont think i can say what they said sorry and i dont know how to put it in a hidebox

just angry at them which makes me feel angry at myself
cant get the thoughts of wanting to cut to go away

[mesmerized.]

Hey, *cuddles*

Who is it that's saying this stuff to you? You don't have to repeat what they said at all, if you're not comfortable with it, but do you think you could explain a bit about the situation, if it would help? Are they people you can just ignore, or try to avoid?

I understand that you're angry, you have every right to be - but try to recognise that anger for what it is, that it's directed at them, and is understandable in such a horrible situation, that it's not for you, you don't deserve to take it out on yourself. There are healthy ways of dealing with anger and I know it isn't the same, at least at first, but do keep trying - maybe exercise, punch a pillow or something, write, scribble on some paper, whatever. But just try to take care of yourself, you deserve that. I'm on MSN if you want to talk, or feel free to PM. Be safe xx