Triggering (SI) - I just cut by accident!

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On my heel of all places; I was messing about and I didn't expect the knife to go in.

Now it's reminded me what it feels like and really triggered me. I've been desperate to slice my arms to pieces for ages but it's summer so I haven't, and I've lost any need to cut anywhere else, and in any case I pretty much can't because swimsuit season (if I could ever dare to get into a pool in a swimsuit).

I also feel really guilty because I have been too busy during the day to go to the gym for about five days and my membership cost loads and loads! & as well I'm sleeping a lot for no apparent reason, which isn't useful, which makes me feel guilty, which makes me want to cut.

I don't think I'm asking anything specific here! I just needed to post to get it off my chest. Love u xx

[Sometimes Crazy]

i can relate to accidental injuries being triggering! is the wound okay now?

it sounds as though focusing on being able to wear a swimsuit comfortably would be a good goal for you to work towards, to keep you motivated to avoid self-harming. maybe you could think of further goals? do you know what's triggered these urges to hurt yourself lately, apart from the accidental one?

sometimes when we're feeling very low, we can sleep more. could that be the case for you?

x

[rockaroni]

It's alright love, these things happen. Is there anyone you can call or anything you can do to distract yourself until the urges pass? It sounds like you've gone a little while without SH, so if you have, congratulations. You've come this far, you can keep doing it.

Taking a bit of time to yourself isn't necesarily a bad thing, don't beat yourself up for taking a bit of a break from the gym. Maybe slowly try and get yourself back into a routine.