Triggering (SI) - I broke myself again - might be considered as a little graphic
I'm so damn stupid.
I was doing so well, almost a week with no cuts or burns, he was so proud of me.
I missed it all, the rush from the pain, seeing the blood.
Well at least they are a little artistic.
I have pictures now on my body so he can't get to mad, can he?
I'm just making the rest of the flower up now. He told me it looks like half a flower so the least i can do is make it a whole one, it's slowly getting there, plus it saves me from having the rest of it tattooed there.
And then there is a heart to remind me that i need to love myself a little more.
Symbolic stuff he can't get angery about.......
It's a flower for beauty and a heart for love.
Surely that isn't a bad thing.
When they have healed they will look nice.
The heart will turn silver, it will be worth the pain.
littlewhisper, my guardian angel. I-Love-You XxX
little_miss, such an amazing friend. LoveYou XxX
I hate it, I don't want it, I don't need it, I never want to see it, You can take it, You can break it.
Mummy to my gorgeous wolf cub - 30/10/2013. Our little fighter at 3 weeks early and a tiny 4lbs 14oz.
I did some 'drawings' on my skin too and now i regret because I'll always have the scars. If someone asks me what hapened to my arm I can't make up an excuse.It's obvious that I self-injured. They are like permanent tatoos.
I'm sorry you go through this.
That is why i'm drawing them, because i want them to be there forever.
I used to have a cross over my heart and now i'm the only one who can see the scar.
I know people will question about it and that i can't lie about them as they will be to obvious but i really don't care about that one. The symbolic-ness behind them kinda take care of the guilt.
I'm not even sure why i posted about it, think i just need some hugs and all that
littlewhisper, my guardian angel. I-Love-You XxX
little_miss, such an amazing friend. LoveYou XxX
I hate it, I don't want it, I don't need it, I never want to see it, You can take it, You can break it.
Mummy to my gorgeous wolf cub - 30/10/2013. Our little fighter at 3 weeks early and a tiny 4lbs 14oz.
I'm sorry, maybe it sound a bit judgemental, but it's definately not.
I admire a lot that you don't give a damn about the others.I would freak out if someone asked about my scars.
The cross over the heart is a great idea.
