Triggering (SI) - Grr, Should I or Should I not*Put triggering just incase*

[XxLittle_Miz_BrokenxX]

So i was trying on a swim suit saterday and my mom made me show her it , i thought "well i can turn my arm the other way so she cant the the scars"...I was right but my brother girlfriend saw them and said" what the fuc* happened to your arm.I lied like i always do.


Then my mother called my doctor and told him im not eating , not sleeping, my room feels like the temp. of hell when you walk in and that she things i am "cutting" myself.She thinks im phyco and want to know why i wont talk to her. well i cant talk to her because she freaks out and she jumps to conclusion and the last time and ONLY time i told her about my SI she said she would get me a therpist and she lied about everything she said.Now i have random people i dont think i know calling my phone asking me if im a cutter <-urgh i hate that word.


If i try to talk to her agian this will be what she says " u fuc*in bitc* u blame everything on me and im just going to call ur doctor so he will send you to the mental hospitial(witch is not even a minute away from my house, how convenient) because im not going to have the death of your stupid @$$ on my concoius....*Slapp!**pulls hair**pushes me in my room and slams the door*


So im thinkin about running away im tired of being mentally abuse and i dont really mind the physcial abuse but im just tired of being call a fat whore and all the other b.s!I've got a best friend that would drop everything to run away too because she know if i was out of that house i would quit Self injuring.Im trying hard to quit right now but it seem almost impossible.Also my mother told me that if i ever run away she call the cops,then beat my to a bloody pulp in front of the cop (idk what pulp mean and i really dont care anymore.. i know sad right?) oh and AFTER the beating she would send me to juvie for being a unruly child.. those where her exact words.


So i need help trying to figure out what i should do about my phyco abuse mother... should i run away?...should i stay, i dont know how much more i can take. and if i runway does anybody know how not to get caught?And all the stuff me and my friend need to take<- i know stupid questions right but im 14 and i really just dont know what to do ?

Thanks for all ur help guys and sorry for the bad.

[momo432]

i'm sorry she's acting like this hun :(
you don't deserve the abuse - do you have any other adults you could talk to about what she's doing?

*huggles* xxx

[perfect façade]

*Hugs*
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[XxLittle_Miz_BrokenxX]

Actually i do have someONE i can talk to about anything and she is like a mother figure to me but she is moving almost 2 hours away from where i live

[TinkerDebs]

eekss... 2 hours thats a long way actually
do you have like all their ocntact details so you can like call or email or whatever when you need support?
also sorry to her your mother treats you in such a horrific manor
stay strong x

[XxLittle_Miz_BrokenxX]

Yeah i have her phone number and we can text but its not really the same cuz her house was like an escape from my house.I go to her house about 3 or 4 times a week and now i will probally only be able to see her 3 times a year.Gosh, I really dont know why i have to deal with so much stress.... I dont want to say its not fair because i sound like im 5 but its really not. I guess life will never be ''fair''.

[TinkerDebs]

lioke you said life isnt fair
and though textig isnt the same at least you still have communication and 3 times a year is better than never
i know what you mean about the house being an escape - i use my friends houses as my escapes lol
*hugs*