Good luck tomorrow Dink. In a wierd way I'd do the opposite of the social worker, I knkow to my cost if you "put on a brave face" then they pschy team will take youa t your word and you won't get the help you need. I'm not saying fake worse symptoms but be true to how you're feeling.
hey guys.
i once got told i didnt look depressed so spent 4 months at the age of 16 without any support in which i stocked up on pills to od with .. so in my optinion faking it is not the way to go - maybe what they meant was - try to run a comb through your hair and wash to see if it gives you the energy to talk....
od is not the answer. hang in there. the crisis team - yeh thats kinda my experience of them too. but if your unsafe keep calling them and get yourself to a and e and keep yourself safe.
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Emily Bronte
thanks for all the kind words everyone, it really means a lot to me, im just going to try my best to be open and honest and talk as much as i can x
sorry to hear you're not getting the right support dark light - i know what you mean about the crisis team though - i hope you get it sorted soon. is there anyone you could be around so you're not on your own? xxx
Help.
abandonment is blowing up out of preportion. I'm stupid i should have known. I cant count on anyone. why do they pretend to care.
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Dad wants me to help him do some work - no. cant keep my eyes open dont have the strength to be around him. Cant get out of it.
feel scared and **** and scared
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Does anyone else go through intense periods of anger where they feel like they may just flip out if anyone even SPEAKS to them?
I keep going through this "anger" phase atleast once a month, and i actually can't cope with it, because i have absolutely no control over it. I'm snappy, angry, tempremental, just generally angry.
I know not everyone goes through these phases, so any input would be appreciative, before i feel like my head is going to explode.
cant say i do. im a naturally argumentative person. but i internalise my anger .. so to me it doesnt feel like anger anymore.
i know some people do though. and they really struggle.
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I'm just really struggling with the anger side of things and i feel like i'm going to rip someone a new one any minute. Damn my anger to hell. I wish i had control over it, which i probably "do" technically speaking, but right now i don't feel like i do, if that makes at all sense >.>
Sorry to barge in with my big mouth. X
yeh i used to get angry like that.
control seemed irrational.
can you go out walking or exercising when you get angry ?
or i tell you what this was what worked for me when i just started to get irritated tearing up paper but then folding and unfolding it... it was something to concentrate on and something methodic to calm down with
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Emily Bronte
Paper idea is definatly a good bit of advice - cheers for that hun.
I suffer with agoraphobia/anxiety disorder so i can't go out of the house - only pace around it like a mad woman heh. And screaming into pillows doesn't help.
But i'm going to go try the paper idea now - thanks again hun xx
oh in which case. walking up and down the stairs is also a good one.
or there are recepies to make playdough . this can be stabbed thrown ripped apart.. which ever action best helps anger :)
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Trust issues. Enough said really, but I cant trust hardly anyone, I think people have alterior motives, want to hurt me, and are really laughing at me.
The way I deal with it is cutting myself off from people and not talking to anyone I dont trust,, but its getting quite lonely :/
On the anger issue. Ripping up newspaper in a certain direction works really well, it seems to rip easily (making bedding for post op gerbils is how I come to know this peice of useless information) and you can rip it fast and it makes a good sound. So pile up old newspapers and once you have ripped them they can go into the compost I think.
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Okayy i have a question.. I have never been diognosed with anything but i thought i may have BiPola at one point then i looked into it a little more and i thought i didn't i thought i might have BPD,(Now i dont think i have anything lol). i have noticed that some people have been diognosed with both. They seem very simlar to me it must be difficult to diognose someone with both.
i wouldnt say it is really, yes they are similar but they stilol have a few little differences. But if you want a daignosis then get an offical one and not self-diagnose.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
I'm feeling really paranoid about being abandoned at the moment.
My mum moved out when I was 12 and I barely ever saw her. She then died when I was 15.
My closest friends have decided they don't like me anymore and have spent the last six months completely ignoring me. And when they see my sister they say horrible things about me.
My boyfriend told me he wanted to go on a break, and I said we could as long as we don't see other people and as long as we see each other a lot (he was my best friend). Well, I haven't seen him since we bumped into each other in Feb, and he's got a new girlfriend.
So, I'm pretty used to abandonment, but it's just making me feel like no one will ever properly love me and eventually everyone's going to leave me.
thats a lot to deal with.
but its not a prewritten pattern. as hard as it is to believe people wont always leave.. ok some will. relationships are fragile. but for as many people who leave there are always others waiting to take their place
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Emily Bronte
I know exactly how you feel, I feel like I can never trust people to stay around and I feel I'm usually right. I'm sorry I am not very good at giving advice just want you to know your not alone and I know how painfull this feeling is.
"I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same too so we are not that different you and I.
You'll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end.
