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Triggering (SI/Abuse) - victim mentallity
i dont know what to do
im a young adult female. im 25 and i live with my parents because of a bad accident i had...
well i suffered severe abuse from my parents, they do not care about me. they just offer a free roof over my head
my sister abuses me severely. shes trying to accomplish something.
before she left to college when she was 18 a few months before she began to abuse me and become severely violent. it started suddenly.she went from being a nice person to attacking me with objects
she hit me with heavy wooden planks, metal curtain rods, chairs,brooms,suitcases, anything heavy she could get her hands on she would attack me with violently and wildly.she would beat me and beat me in the corner and hit me with her hands and spit at me and throw liquid and water at me, for nothing. i did nothing to make her angry and upset. sometimes the attacks happened because i asked how her day was, said hello, told her god loves her or that i love her very much and she would run at me and begin to beat me and get viscously angry
she is always angry and wants nothing to do with me, she told me our friendship as sister is over for life. but she does not ignore me, she wants to follow me and harrass me and put me down and give me beatings.. she pays attention to me when she beats me or attempts to hurt me, but other then that saying hello to me is asking too much
she would torment me all the time. every day,. everytime she saw me or walked into the same room as me. every 5 minutes.she would make animal noises, scream at me, put me down, say things to harrass me..
everythign she could to make me scared. the she started starving me, she blocked the kitchen so i couldnt get in, she sat one night all night at the doorway to the kitchen blocking it with a chair so i coudlnt eat and i had to wait till she left at 6am to get a peice of food to eat. i couldnt sleep because i was very hungry and had not eaten all day
she still hits me everytime she sees me and the violence is increasing, she shoved a suitcase into me, she tried to hit me with a broom today, she kicked me and punched me today and shes been hitting me every single day for the last 2 weeks in a row
im physically disabled and i have severe health problems., im disabled but an injury and cant walk well and i have chronic pain
i think the beatings cause me more pain
shes making my health situation worse... stress for one is never good when a person is sick or has a health situation
so she knows what shes doing, shes an intelligent young woman and knows the effect this has on me or on anyone
so shes trying to accomplish something.. wasting my life? making me in fear?
i dont know comepletely whats cooked up in her mind as to why she has to hit her physically disabled sister every day and torment me
i have health problems and a heart condition i found out about recently, im not supposed to be in stressful situations
i told her im sick and she dosnt get the point, i complained to her that i will call the cops, police
she does not care
what is happening here? shes home from college and she also steals from me and tries to break things.
she went into my room and grabbed my jewelery box with all my jewelery i have from years ago till now and tried to walk out with it, to steal it, i grabbed it away
she is violent to me every day, and none of my other family members have anything to do with me and they all are slightly violent to me too and they put me down sometimes or ignore me
she also tries to get other family members to hate me and she tells bad stories she makes up about me to them...she tries to accuse me
she has no remorse for anything. a grandparent of mine got sick and she laughed about it with no consiounse.. and she started calling me names for caring
either way something is wrong with her but i suffer cause of this
what can i do
i have some sort of victim mentality, where i think what she does is right or its not that bad or i try to forget
forgetting dosnt help because theres that reminder there daily
what is wrong with my family
and i dont want to call the police because the police dont help, i tried and they didnt listen to me cause its not my house
i dont want to call social services either
i live in the us
how do i stand up to "this girl".. i call her that because she does not act like a sister, she acts like a bully.
i asked her why shes like this and either i didnt get any understandable response or i didnt get an answer i want
she wont tell me any rational reason
she is old enough to know better shes older then 18
no family member of mine cares or will intervene, i tried many times and they make excuses for her behavior and they think its fine for her to hit me
why am i letting her do this? what can i do to stand up for myself or help myself
i dont have a friend or anyone
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