I'm in hospital right now, I read my admission report and it says i'm having 'command hallucinations' but I don't know what they are, and that I'm a high risk of self harm/suicide.
They're drugging me up big time - 600mg seroquel, lorazepam, haloperidol and zopiclone at night.
They keep talking about the voices, but i try to explain they are MY voices of MY thoughts, but they are not my thoughts because I don't put them there. This is really confusing and I don't feel any of us really know what I'm going on about.
I'm not under section, so what will happen if i refuse the meds?
I also read on my report that If I want to discharge myself they can hold me on a section 5 - i've never heard of this! But next to it someone had written 72 hours. So basically, that means I'm voluntary until I want to leave?
I don't dislike this hospital as much as I have in the past (on private wards in fact) so I don't mind staying, i'd just like to know what my rights are. And some hugs/support/similar stories.
Yeah unfortunately it does mean you are voluntary unless you want to leave. I have been in the same position in the past. But it's still better to remain as you are than be sectioned, because once you're sectioned it gets a lot harder to get leave etc and if they put you on a section three, they can medicate you against your will.
If you think you are being put on too many meds then I urge you to discuss it with your psychiatrist or the nurses. Refusing meds wont help at all. I know it's hard but things are a lot easier if you co-operate and talk about how you are feeling.
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when i tried to leave i nearly got a section 5(2) which is a 72 hour section until a section 2 or 3 can be arranged. its horrible being medicated im on a fair few myself, but they are supposed to help with the voices. maybe have a chat with the nurses about how you're feeling xx
*hugs* I'm sorry. Ooo seroquel is draining... I was in a hospital for about four days last week. I know it's awful, but in the end, it help a lot. :) It's a great experience. I agree with the above; talk to the nurses about how you're feeling. Take care. xx
As said above, if you insist on leaving then then van hold you for 72 hours against your will until they decide to hold you on section 2 (28 days) or section 3 (6 months). They can't force any drugs on you (bar restraining you once) unless you're under section. So you can refuse but there isn't much they can do about it.
I agree with the others that the best idea would be to talk to your nurses and psycs about the meds, say that you feel it is a lot, and maybe ask about what they have written on your file. They will be the best people to tell you about the "command hallucinations" and things. Talking about things is the best way to make use of the help you can get there, I hope you manage to be open with them :) I know it's hard though *hugs*
That happened to me i tried to leave and i got put on a 72 hour section (which is what i think a section 5.2 is) untill a section 2 was put in place it was horrible experience so i would recomend trying to commincate how you are feeling and what you want in a calm way instead of doing anything drastic! taking medication is horrible but if you get sectioned they can force you to take it, so maybe if you dont like it have a discusion with your psychriatrist!
The best of luck.
I hope hospital isnt to much of a horrible experience for you
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the legislation actually states you cant be held under threat of section, so really they shouldnt be saying that...but i have been in the same position, and they do. x
Command hallunation: (taken from wiki page for wording)
"the person would hallucinate a voice giving admonitory advice or commands, and obey these voices without question; one would not be at all conscious of one's own thought processes per se."
In other words, an auditory hallucination which a person finds hard to distinguish from their own thought process which gives commands for action (which is why it can be marked as a suicide risk) that the person is liable to follow without question.
Hope that helps somwhat.
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They keep talking about the voices, but i try to explain they are MY voices of MY thoughts, but they are not my thoughts because I don't put them there. This is really confusing and I don't feel any of us really know what I'm going on about.
*hugs* that is exactly what i have as well. my doctor keeps calling them voiced but i have to explain to her im not hearing voices it just the thoughts are like someone elses.
if you feel the meds are too much, can you ask about reducing them? also as others have probably said its better to be voluntary than be sectioned if you can help it.
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