Triggering (Sexual Abuse) - pointless post

bobbiwibble · 29-05-2009, 12:23 PM

nothing worthwhile will be said in this post. im sorry. i cant even ask for help any more..i dont deserve it not after what i did
i got carried off to the hospital again last week.. hairline fracture in my thigh from where he stamped on me

The following content has been hidden - Reason : nobody on here will talk to me if i write it :'(

im so sorry i dont know what to do
i wish i COULD cry

Popple · 29-05-2009, 01:01 PM

Sweetie what you wear is your choice and no one has any right to hurt you in any way based onw hat you are wearing. Just because you wear something doesn't mean you enjoy certain things. This isn't your fault love
*cuddles*
Take care of yourself
x

Kuri · 29-05-2009, 01:06 PM

Exactly what Miss Pixie said! Noone here hates you because of it.

shadow-light · 29-05-2009, 02:29 PM

I agree. what you wear is up to you, it does mean that you want something to happen or enjoy it.

no one hates you, and you deserve all the support you can get

29-05-2009, 02:44 PM

what you wear is YOUR choice hell if you want you could wear those lacy underwear over your clothes or on your head and none of us would hate you
you know where i am if you need anything

bobbiwibble · 29-05-2009, 08:08 PM

it IS bad though :'(

i keep telling myself, its not like it made a difference because he didnt know i was wearing them. i usually wear boypants cos they make me feel safe (possibly too much information sorry) but the bad thing can happen anyway, i know that, i know that, i know that, i just

it's been over a year since i've done anything except scream when he comes near. the old old STUPID things i did.. we talked on several occasions, i even let him buy me and my friend a drink once, so i understand that i needed to be taught a lesson.

but this year, i havent done anything wrong.. not to do with him anyway.. so i was feeling better cos even though bad things kept happening, there was nothing i could have done to stop it.

he says i smile when i see him he says im his good little girl well not so little any more
he says he only hurts me because im a tease who pretends not to like it but that isnt true it isnt i swear
he says if i stop trying to run away from him he wont have to cut me in the bad places any more

shadow-light · 29-05-2009, 08:14 PM

he's the bad one not you. you've done nothing to deserve this, and you never have. he's saying these things to shift the blame off himself, to play with your mind. he is an awaful awful person and what he does is no reflection on you at all

bobbiwibble · 30-05-2009, 04:50 PM

on monday i have appointment at the Haven *nods*
they promised that if i went back they wouldnt try to make me talk to a policewoman, just sort out therapy.
he told me if i get therapy i am a delusional little bitch and he will kill me and make it look like suicide and nobody will question it because i am so mopey

shadow-light · 30-05-2009, 05:06 PM

well he's lying! he's probably just scared because he knows what he's doing is wrong and thin ks if you get therapy then he may be caught out... and there is no way he could kill you and make it look like suicide, thwere would an enquiry into your death and he WOULD be caught, and he'll know this... he's just trying to scare you

you deserve therapy and you are not delusional and defanylt not a bitch

bobbiwibble · 30-05-2009, 05:11 PM

*cries* please don't be so nice to me i dont deserve it i dont know what to say

shadow-light · 30-05-2009, 05:12 PM

you do deserve people to be nice to you.

I know that can be hard to believe at times, but he's the bad one, not you. and nothing he does nor says can alter that

Popple · 30-05-2009, 07:59 PM

You do deserve people to be nice! You are a good person. He is in the wrong and the only reason he doesn't want you to have therapy is because he knows he is in the wrong and is scared about getting into trouble and you starting to see what he is doing is wrong because then you wouldn't be under his control anymore.