Triggering (Suicide/Sexual Abuse) - todays been rough

15-05-2009, 11:03 PM

ok so today has been super rough
its been filled with flashbacks
suicidal thoughts
and need to cut
i almost bought alot of tablets
but i didnt
i saw someone i knew so put the down
i hate this
i cant cope anymore
i just cant do this
i hate it all
i just want it all to end
i need it to end
i cant cope with the flashbacks anymore
i just cant handle them

The following content has been hidden - Reason : coded and so bad

im sorry i needed to get that out even if no one knows what it says

i just want to die

Diamonds. · 15-05-2009, 11:05 PM

Why do you want to die hun? You havent explained why.
x

15-05-2009, 11:38 PM

ive written it all out on here
i just cant do this anymore
its too hard
too painful

shadow-light · 15-05-2009, 11:41 PM

I know it's hard, but please keep fighting. flashbacks are awful things, but remember they're memories, the past, they can't hurt you

16-05-2009, 08:51 AM

i just cant do this anymore
its too hard
its too painful
its just too much

its just way too hard

delete account · 16-05-2009, 10:21 AM

Funnily enough my brother and I used to write in that code when we were little.

You didn't break the rules hunni, you have definitely done the right thing there and nothing wrong - I hope the future will be better for you because of it. I really hope it does.
Maybe you should just come on here and talk when you feel like this, like you did just then. *hugs and support* xxxx

white_silent_darkness · 16-05-2009, 03:30 PM

*hugs* (If Ok)

There was no rules to break You did the right thing You did well doing what you have done. I hope it all goes alright for you and works out!

Its hard to deal with the flashbacks Hard to face things You are doing so well Keep on fighting. There's is a light at the end of the tunnel

*Agrees with above* Maybe you should try talking on here as you have done in this thread

I too write in that code lol