Triggering (SI) - scared out of my mind

[zivalover16]

I came home from college Thursday and haven't spent an entire day home since. In fact, I've barley been home. I'm exhausted right now. My parents keep yelling at me for one thing or another. My mom treats me like I'm handicap because of my weight (I;m overweight but it doesn;t stop me from anything and never had) even though until recently she weighed more then me. It's making me want to stop eating.I tried talking to my friend. I said w/e I;m done with this, she told me that I shouldn't have talked to her then. I don't know what to do anymore. It's all too much. I hate to admit it but I'm starting to feel suicidal again....only this time, I don't have anyone to tell and it scares me. I don't see my therapist untill Monday. I don't know what to do. i don't want anymore scars but it's the only thing keeping me alive. That scares the sh*t out of me. I don't know how I'm going to last the entire summer....

[silverfaerychild]

*hugs*

i am here if you ever need to talk.....feel free to pm me anytime

[yakerdeets]

im here for you and hang in there, be strong and you can make it through. pm me anytime if you need ANYTHING. *hugs*

[pixiedust31]

hey hun

im sorry things are rough my mothers the same but i brush it off now and its taken me along time to get to that point my life not hers and she cannot relive hers through mine as she has regrets

you have us and can talk to us all summer long always here 24 hours a day 365 days a year

please dont hurt your self if you can help it i know its hard keep busy maybe write it down or even play music so loud it hurts your ears i do that to drown out the things in my head

pm me anytime if you need anything inbox always open

take care

pixie xxxx

[zivalover16]

thanks...i did ok...I ended up taking a shower and putting the water so hot that it burned a bit... I am feeling a bit better today and hopefully it;ll stay that way....thanks

[zivalover16]

f*ck....my mom pretty much just told me that she gave me car to my brother!!!!!!!!!I'm soooooooooo pissed... I can't do this anymore, it's getting to be wayyyyyy to hard. I don't know what to do anymore >O. UGH DLKJFA;ELIJKDGKFMROEIJDKFM,