It's like i've thrown all that effort away...
Do i start counting again? Or what?
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I feel like a defective model, like I came off the assembly line flat-out f***ed and my parents should have taken me back for repairs before the warranty ran out. Instead they didn't notice, and now i'm stuck like this.
firstly,well done for those 11 days. it is a fantastic achievement!! you should be very proud!
secondly, i have always found i have done better when i dont count, just let the days go passed and take each day as it comes. i find when you are counting you focus alot of the sh-ing like the same way if you were on a diet,as soon as you say diet you then think about food all the day. sh is the same.
what i found quite useful last year was to keep a diary and in the corner of each day would just make a little mark.i think mine was a smiley or sad face. that way i could keep a check on it, so if u did what to count at a later date you could but without being way to focussed on how many days.
how are you feeling other than that, was there a reason for doing it that you want to talk about ?
hugs xoxo
this pic is so i can always remember jen who was my l'il sock monkey friend who has left ryl and i miss her!!!
I'd had a really bad 3 days, bad dreams, flashbacks, trouble at college...
Just a bad time, and i'd had enough, i couldn't not do it...
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I feel like a defective model, like I came off the assembly line flat-out f***ed and my parents should have taken me back for repairs before the warranty ran out. Instead they didn't notice, and now i'm stuck like this.
*offers safe hugs* you haven't thrown that effort away at all. slip ups happen, the best thing you can do is to keep on fighting the urges and not let the slip up be a fall. Focus on the positive things that have happened.. that you made it 11 days (congrats!), that you were able to fight urges and celebrate those. I find when I do that it's easier to keep fighting and keep motivated.
sorry to hear about your trouble at home, you definitely don't deserve that. if you ever want to talk feel free to pm me.
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I feel like a defective model, like I came off the assembly line flat-out f***ed and my parents should have taken me back for repairs before the warranty ran out. Instead they didn't notice, and now i'm stuck like this.
11 days is great, sweet.
Yes, you do.. get back up and try again, see if you can go 14 days (2 weeks) this time. :] It's ok to have a slip up, it's part of recovery, sweet. You can do this. Take care. xo.
11 days is great.
Although it may seem tough starting again, relapses do happen its part of recovery. The fact you already want to continue shows excellent strength so well done. Do you get help for the flashbacks and such? There have been some great advice threads on flashbacks, sleeping techniques and distractions.
xxx
Count the garden by the flowers, never by the leaves that fall. Count your life with smiles and not the tears that roll.
I don't really, i'll go and have a look, thank you
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I feel like a defective model, like I came off the assembly line flat-out f***ed and my parents should have taken me back for repairs before the warranty ran out. Instead they didn't notice, and now i'm stuck like this.
I feel like a defective model, like I came off the assembly line flat-out f***ed and my parents should have taken me back for repairs before the warranty ran out. Instead they didn't notice, and now i'm stuck like this.
Hey
sorry about all that stuff :( xo *hugs* that sounds really hard, you dont deserve those kinds of things.
11 days is a great accomplishment! a slip up is just a time that we have to re-evaluate our plan, what we want to achieve. its a part of recovery ! we just need to pick ourselves back up, and try again. i beleive in you :)
"They say time heals all wounds. I don't agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessons, but it is never gone." - Rose Kennedy
I feel like a defective model, like I came off the assembly line flat-out f***ed and my parents should have taken me back for repairs before the warranty ran out. Instead they didn't notice, and now i'm stuck like this.
this pic is so i can always remember jen who was my l'il sock monkey friend who has left ryl and i miss her!!! 
Thanks
