Yeah pretty much because the other day my friend and I were playing this candle game that's supposed to conjure spirit(s), but we didn't finish because we got scared. I was worried about it, like if I wouldn't get into Heaven when I die because of that game.
I am having the hardest time right now and I really need some prayers. I feel like I'm always complaining-- and it's even making me sick. Maybe that's why no one else can ever stand to be near me for more than a few days; I wear people out, I suppose. How do you get away from yourself?
When I need to get away from myself I do things that don't require interaction with others, a time where I can just either think or not think. Such as taking a hot, relaxing, bath or taking a walk. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm always here to listen. I'll pray for you.
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Refresh Tomorrow =D
It's our christian union at school and I can't to be back.
It's great there, every one is really supportive. We all still wear our orange string around our wrists that we put on for SIAD which is great. Out of the whole group I'm the only one who still SI's but there were 4 of us, just hoping God's light will guide me through this.
He's litterally saved me before and I really just wana be able to tell like every one who'd understand about it. My lord literally saved my life, I don't know why but he did.
Also we do a lot of group prayer, so if any one needs praying for, we're more than happy to :) just PM me
he's very big and powerful but he's very deep and very personal he knows every hair on your head its not that he doesnt care its that most of us don't listen hard enough to hear him answer the world yells and screams so loud it block his voice out and sumtimes we jst dnt lyk the answer he cares, he cares about our pain no matter how small it is when we cry he cries when we hurt he hurts he cares bout every cut, burn or scratch you make on yourself he does care about your feeling sumtimes we jst dnt realize it but he reaches for you he died for you he wants you to realize all he's asking for is you all he needs al he wants is you ....i jst felt lyk sumbody needed that
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“Each of us is a unique strand in the intricate web of life and here to make a contribution.” -
Yeah pretty much because the other day my friend and I were playing this candle game that's supposed to conjure spirit(s), but we didn't finish because we got scared. I was worried about it, like if I wouldn't get into Heaven when I die because of that game.
There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, so you needn't worry about losing your salvation.
It's really good that you stopped though.
Yeah umm i kinda feel a bit ... odd posting here as i'm not a christian, or religious at all but i want to be?
There's the belief. and faith. and i really have none of that for anything but i dunno. i want to i just ... can't? I believe in everything the Church stands for, just not any of the beliefs heh. thing is, i'm willing to try? I actually really want to. i feel so stupid and out of place posting here >.<
I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared.
But no-one would listen, cos no-one else cared
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect but neither have you
Yeah umm i kinda feel a bit ... odd posting here as i'm not a christian, or religious at all but i want to be?
There's the belief. and faith. and i really have none of that for anything but i dunno. i want to i just ... can't? I believe in everything the Church stands for, just not any of the beliefs heh. thing is, i'm willing to try? I actually really want to. i feel so stupid and out of place posting here >.<
Do you have a friend who is religious? Could you perhaps go to church with him/her sometime? I wouldn't suggest going on your own, especially if you haven't been in a church before or for a long time. You will want to have at least one familiar thing, you know?
For me, man, I'm struggling. I wound up in a crisis home because I hit complete rock bottom. I freaked out and worried a bunch of people. My nightmares and such are getting worse. I don't know if I'll be allowed to live on campus this summer due to the crisis house. And if I can't live on campus... I'll literally have nowhere to live. I don't have family. I don't have anyone. I need to stay in the Cities because of my doctors.
I'm struggling. I am not trying to cut anymore... but I found phantom cuts on my leg. I know I didn't scratch myself in my sleep and they aren't deep at all. However, I wonder how I got them. Odd. I hope I'm not disassociating again so badly that i'm hurting myself.
I'm trying to cling on to my faith in this turmoil. This song by Rich Mullins sums up my life lately:
Quote:
Well, sometimes my life
Just don't make sense at all
When the mountains look so big
And my faith just seems so small
CHORUS:
So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace
And I wake up in the night and feel the dark
It's so hot inside my soul
I swear there must be blisters on my heart
CHORUS
Surrender don't come natural to me
I'd rather fight You for something
I don't really want
Than to take what You give that I need
And I've beat my head against so many walls
Now I'm falling down, I'm falling on my knees
And this Salvation Army band
Is playing this hymn
And Your grace rings out so deep
It makes my resistance seem so thin
CHORUS
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place." - Anon
"When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. " - FDR
so um this might sound a bit weird- but i told God.
one night a while ago long after i decided that i wanna stop my SI, i figured that i needed to come clean because the bible (my bible) tells me its wrong to mark my body and my body is also a temple for the holy spirit. it felt like a really stupid thing to do becasue i know God sees and knows all, but it wasnt really about telling God it was more admitting my SI for the 1st time, out loud to myself and allowing God to hear. so while praying amongst tears i wispered it to God and then this amazing thing happend God spoke to me and said "dont worry, i will make it alright", oh and then i was directed to the verse Psalm 147 verse 3 "he helas the borken hearted and binds up their wounds".
i just wanted you all to know that cos for me it was the 1st step and even thought i havent made it very far- i bagan the journey and with God i (you) can be free from this.
The BRAVEST thing
I ever did was CONTINUING MY LIFE when I wanted to die.
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
please can someone pray for me, a lot has gone on this weekend and I don't know how much more I can take. I've taken my eyes of God for literally 2 days and everything has fallen apart. I'm so so lost, I can't find hope anymore, I can't even bring myself to face God but I know if I don't I'll start SIing all over again and I'm scared of how much damage that could cause to my faith.
'The nights of crying your eyes out give way to the days of laughter' Psalm 30 v 5
hey guys,
erm, i didnt know where to post this so i thought i'd start here
but recently, especially over easter, ive come to the conclusion that i need to find god again
i feel like theres a massive part of me missing
i miss feeling like he's there looking after me and i feel very alone.
i tried to pray, but i got really overwhelmed and very scared and started crying, which is unusual because i never cry
but thinking about god sets me off so badly.
i dunno what to do
could someone help me?
sorry if i've intruded
hey guys,
erm, i didnt know where to post this so i thought i'd start here
but recently, especially over easter, ive come to the conclusion that i need to find god again
i feel like theres a massive part of me missing
i miss feeling like he's there looking after me and i feel very alone.
i tried to pray, but i got really overwhelmed and very scared and started crying, which is unusual because i never cry
but thinking about god sets me off so badly.
i dunno what to do
could someone help me?
sorry if i've intruded
What sets you off? What scares you? What is overwhelming about it?
I hope I'm not asking too personal of questions, but it would help me get a better grasp of what you're asking and I can better answer.
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place." - Anon
"When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. " - FDR
erm, im not sure. i go to a discussion group at my school and my teacher talks about god and we ask questions.
i dont know what im scared of. i think the fact that there is possibly such a great power looking over us all overwhelms me a great deal. i get this odd feeling in my chest. i see that so many people's lives have been changed for the better and i wish i could do the same, and im so terrified of going to hell and being alone.
im not sure why i feel so emotional when i think about it, and im not sure if its a good thing. sorry if i've hijacked the thread, i didnt want to start a new one, and thought you guys would know what to say
hope this link works and doesn't just post the video on here.
[ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aERBPdtficE&feature=PlayList&p=7146F90385E 8EC5E&index=10"]YouTube - Keona, Zambian Vocal Group, Jennifer Roland and Keith Mullins[/ame]
It's a video of Keona, Zambian vocal group, and Jennifer Roland and a guy from her band Keith Mullins at Dollywood's Festival of the Nations. They're all pretty amazing!
I've gone around everywhere.
I've searched around everywhere.
I've turned around everywhere.
There's no one, there's no one like Him.
There's no one, there's no one like Jesus.
There's no one, there's no one like Jesus.
There's no one, there's no one like Jesus.
There's no one, there's no one like Him.
erm, im not sure. i go to a discussion group at my school and my teacher talks about god and we ask questions.
i dont know what im scared of. i think the fact that there is possibly such a great power looking over us all overwhelms me a great deal. i get this odd feeling in my chest. i see that so many people's lives have been changed for the better and i wish i could do the same, and im so terrified of going to hell and being alone.
im not sure why i feel so emotional when i think about it, and im not sure if its a good thing. sorry if i've hijacked the thread, i didnt want to start a new one, and thought you guys would know what to say
No, you're not hijacking at all. I just wanted to know exactly what you were asking before I tried to formulate a response. Look for a reply tomorrow afternoon (I have some free time then... I need to get back to homework and cleaning).
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place." - Anon
"When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. " - FDR
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