if you can't find a good baptism card, just find a pretty blank one and write your own message. one with her favourite animal, i don't know, something like that
Singing Potato - I don't have any advice I'm afraid but I just thought I'd say I know exactly where you're coming from. At the moment I feel like everything is deteriorating and my SI is getting more and more frequent. But at the same time I really wish my relationship with God would improve. I pray regularly and stuff but somehow I don't know... I feel kind of distant. I've got a lot of anger and hurt and I guess that stops me.
With regard to SI I try not to worry too much about it. Other people don't tend to understand... But God understands us completely. So if SI is our coping mechanism, for whatever reason, I believe that we won't get condemned for that.
i've been a christian since i was 5...
unnessicarily saved four or five times since...
3rd year SI-er...
its god to see a christian thread here [RYL], as i live in a jewish majority town, and cant really talk about God here [my town].
i, personally, think that everyone, excepct me, will go to heaven, because i've done things that the Bible specifically says NOT to do... :/
Hey everyone, my paternal grandmother died over the weekend. It was a bit of a shock for everyone. My grandfather (her husband), died less than a year ago. I understand that she was lonely w/ out him and that she missed him terribly (they were together for 64 years!), but I'm still incredibly sad.
More than my self, I'm saddened for my father. He's the only one left of his family, except for us. His brother died about 10 years ago and now he's lost both his parents. I don't know what to do to help him. He was so lost when his dad died and now that his mum is gone too, I'm afraid he'll never come back from it. (I can't imagine what it would be like to lose both my parents.)
Please be in prayer for our family.
Thanks.
Luv
We all wear masks, and the time comes when we cannot remove them without removing some of our own skin. ~André Berthiaume
Had to share... I already know you all will LOVE this.
Johnny Diaz "More Beautiful you"
Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn’t straight her body isn’t fake
And she’s always felt overweight
Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care your skin your body and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are There could never be a more beautiful you Don’t buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do So there could never be a more beautiful you
Little girl twenty-one the things that you’ve already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you’ve got a man but he’s got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead
Welllittle girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there’s a man whose love is true
And he’ll treat you like the jewel you are So turn around you’re not too far To back away be who you are To change your path go another way It’s not too late you can be saved If you feel depressed with past regrets The shameful nights hope to forget Can disappear they can all be washed away By the one who’s strong can right your wrongs Can rid your fears dry all your tears And change the way you look at this big world He will take your dark distorted view And with His light He will show you truth And again you’ll see through the eyes of a little girl
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“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
Today I took my mom out for the day. I bought her pretty things and took her to lunch. We talked and giggled and shared secret, but this time it was different. Times have changed. No longer am I the one being doted on, instead I’m doing the doting. Not that I mind, I love that I have the means and opportunity to spend time and money on my mother.
Things are shifting in our relationship and I’m happy to have one-- as shallow as it might be. Don’t take this the wrong way, but we have a pretty shallow relationship. I love my mother, I do, but we don’t always get along. I inherited her love of travel, exotic food, and understanding of other cultures, I did not inherit her limitations or her sense of right and wrong. I DO have a sense of right and wrong, but it’s mine, and it doesn’t always comply w/ hers.
The only way to keep our relationship to the level we’ve worked so hard to achieve, is to be shallow. We talk about silly things like clothes and men, and the importance of travel and accepting culture outside our own. Sometimes we go deeper and talk about how we feel, but even those conversations are shallow.
I don’t talk about my self harm, she doesn’t acknowledge whether or not the scars are really from and “accident” in university. I don’t tell her about my loneliness or how my heart aches to be truly loved. We joke about sex, love, and relationships as if passing them off, but she has no idea how much I want and need both.
She doesn’t talk about her depression or how she really feels some days and I’m still too scared to ask. In some ways I want to keep that tiny shred of “mother” intact instead of fully accepting her humanity. I’m afraid of the answers I’ll get and that knowledge that I’m not enough.
I feel like a failure everyday and I’m hoping and praying that she doesn’t feel the same way. I want the answers to be honest and sincere, but I also want them to be only good. I don’t want to hear that I’m a disappointment, that I’m a shame, that I’m not what she expected. And, even though, I believe she loves me, I’m also afraid that’s how she feels.
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We all wear masks, and the time comes when we cannot remove them without removing some of our own skin. ~André Berthiaume
i've been a christian since i was 5...
unnessicarily saved four or five times since...
3rd year SI-er...
its god to see a christian thread here [RYL], as i live in a jewish majority town, and cant really talk about God here [my town].
i, personally, think that everyone, excepct me, will go to heaven, because i've done things that the Bible specifically says NOT to do... :/
Now, I haven't read the whole entire Bible, but I've asked questions from the teachers at my private Christian school. If you are saved no one can take you out of God's hand and it specifically states that in the Bible (can't remember what verse exactly though). Then again, if you get saved through the power of Christ all of your sins will be washed away. Sorry for just repeating everything you've probably ever heard about this, just thought I would try to help...
dose any one here ever feel to scared to pray or read the Bible ?
we are feeling very scared right now about other things but we are even scared of praying or reading the Bible
Serenity, what is it that you are scared of? Is it something out of your control?
Psalm 27v1 says:
The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?
Our God is above every situation and everything, we have no need to fear because we are in his hands.
The Bible talks a great deal about having fear of the Lord. This is healthy, God is incredible and fear brings reverence and respect. However, he does not want us to be too afraid to talk to him, he opens his arms to welcome you and you can run to him as a child runs to their parents.
Tell him you are scared, you don't have to pretend you are not and try desparately to pray about other things. Be straight up and honest with God, he knows it all any way, there is no point in praying around a subject, just get straight to it. He loves and cares for you 1 Peter 5v7 'give all your worries to God for he cares for you.'
I am praying that you will be able to come before God and he will fill you with courage.
'The nights of crying your eyes out give way to the days of laughter' Psalm 30 v 5
Until yesterday I was in your possition, as are many people here and all around the world, your not at all alone, God is still with you and still cares a great deal about you. He is also there waiting for you, whenever your ready to fully return, He will welcome you back with open arms.
I was just rooting through some old posts, and I saw this and realized that Absi hasn't been around in a while...
Methinks she should come back!
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
I was thinking about the amazing night 20 months ago when Christ freed me from the self-imposed bondage of SI, so I decided to dig up this: http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...ad.php?t=13714
This is the thread I posted in moving forward shortly after...
The thing is I love being in my broken-ness. I don't know if I want to be broken and alone with my self injury or be with God.
I know that feeling. I've also tried to figure out why I often feel that way. I don't have all the answers, but I think I understand part of why I feel that way.
Being broken and alone means nobody is letting you down. God isn't letting you down, because you're not giving him a chance. You aren't happy; but you're reassuring yourself it's because you're choosing it, not because of any other reason. I've had that back and forth mental battle many times. We make ourselves hurt and bleed because it's our choice, it's our pain, it's the little part of our lives we can control. Breaking down and falling in Jesus' arms is out of our control. The aching in our hearts, that longing we feel really deep down that feels like our heart is being squeezed, that's our heart and our soul crying out for love and for comfort. When you let your heart open up to Jesus for those brief moments, those times when you resolve that you want to be close to God, you've got to hold onto those times and remember what it feels like to be so sure of Jesus' love. We won't always feel close to God.... I know I sure don't all the time, but I know he loves me so much and I'd do anything just to feel his presence.
"go ahead and hate your neighbor. Go ahead and cheat a friend. Do it in the name of Heaven- you can justify it in the end."
It strikes interestingly with me because I'm finding that a lot of old friends in the church totally treat me like crap and force this forgiveness on me, instead of asking for it expecting it. i'm tired of being treated like crap.
"go ahead and hate your neighbor. Go ahead and cheat a friend. Do it in the name of Heaven- you can justify it in the end."
It strikes interestingly with me because I'm finding that a lot of old friends in the church totally treat me like crap and force this forgiveness on me, instead of asking for it expecting it. i'm tired of being treated like crap.
We're humans and far from perfect, so sometimes people do behave that way. But that's NOT how we're supposed to be, and we most definitely cannot use "the name of Heaven" to justify our sinful behaviors.
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