Triggering (SI) - What are you supposed to do when...
By the way before I write this I am not at all Pro and don't encourage SH, I wish everyone was free from it.
But what am I supposed to do when I find nothing bad about SHing, I mean I do when other people do it, but with me I know its wrong at the back of my mind, but I enjoy it and sometimes it is the highlight of my day and sometimes need to do it just to get through the day. I used to feel guilty after doing it but now that is gone and I am scared because my SH is getting a lot worse but in this mindset I don't want to stop, because I don't see anything wrong with it because I can only see the positives.
That is very confusing and all jumbled I know
Hugs would be appreciated.
Amy x
'Cause I'll always remember you the same.
Oh eyes like wild flowers within demons of change ♥
ive been there. and i think thats just a phase. you're just trying to justify what you know is wrong. like you said, in the back of your mind, you know its wrong. and if its wrong when others do it.. its wrong when you do it too...
just stay strong, and stay safe... you don't need it, its just the easy way out.
i've been there. ...for now, i don't know any other advice other than just keep fighting it anyway. there's really no way for someone to just change your outlook on SI, it's something that you find yourself, in time. *squishes*
2 Corinthians 12:9 (RcV) My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is perfected in weakness.
Affirmations: *I now choose to release every negative, destructive, fearful idea and thought from my mind and from my life.
*I am willing to release the pattern in me that is creating any negative condition in my life.
*I release all struggle now, and I am at peace.
Hun,
I know exactly how that feels. I do/used to feel like this alot. I still don't see anything wrong or bad about it. In my opinion to be it's always going to be an option for me. It's always going to 'be there', even when I don't do it for years. It's a huge part of me, and I believe it always will be. I enjoy it as well, but you've just got to think of it as there are other things I can do that I enjoy when I need to calm myself down or get rid of an urge. Take care. xo.
Why would you feel bad or guilty about something thats helping you get through the day, and it makes you feel better?
But the thing is, whilst its great that you have a crutch, you need to convince yourself that what youre doing is ultimetely dextrimental to your mental and physical well being.
Perhaps you should work on finding a more constructive way of making yourself feel better..even if you slowly replace the sh with something else.. or even if you just try and cut it down to once every other day.
Do you have someone you can talk to in real life about how youre feeling?
i really hope this doesnt sound as preachy as i think it does. If it does, im really sorry.
Your not alone amy i feel like that most of the times somedays it i really want to stop it but i cant as its my only way of coping other times it why the f**k did i think like that i cant stop it and i am not ready to stop yet .Sometimes i hate doing it but i no it the only way it will stop me thinking about it so i can go to bed other times i just have to do it sorry its a bit long but right now i feel its normal thats quite bad.
Charlie you have good advice, it doesn't sound preachy at all =]
I will try and limit how much I harm.
I have a psychiatrist and will try and talk to him about it.
Amy x
'Cause I'll always remember you the same.
Oh eyes like wild flowers within demons of change ♥
At my current point in my, I don't see self harming as bad at all, I'm only hurting myself, and it stops me doing serious stuff to myself. Right now you could call it my life saver.
I know I shouldn't do it, but I don't think It's wrong, I actually made a thread on it a while back about it becoming a total normality.
On a long enough time line, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero.
Your not alone Amy. I have a feeling most times when I SI, it's a feeling where I don't want to stop ya know? I know how hard it is to fight these feelings hunni but we really have to. Sorry if I'm not much help right now. Just thought I would let you know that your not alone.
=) *Hugs*
~~SW~~
**~~When night falls on me, I'll not close my eyes, I'm to alive, and you're to strong~~**
**~~ If you feel alone, or just want someone to care, I will. PM ME and I will LISTEN~~**
I've been there. Constantly giving people advice which i know to be true, yet when as soon as it is directed upon myself, i think that its a load of say say that is all text bookish and has no consequence on how i actually feel.
Thats prob becasue your mind has trained you to think sh is ok for yourself, becasue its your only coping mechanism that suits you well.
Try to beat the urges, because sh, while you feel helps you, will only in the long run work against you.
Take care xx
There there baby, it's just text book stuff, it's in the ABC of growing up...
