Triggering (SI/Abuse) - Story Untitled At The Moment.

[ur_awful_iloveyou]

Chapter Nine.
Maybe triggering to some.
please take care.
xx Brittiany


Chapter Nine - Just When It Couldn’t Get Worse



We spent the whole day hanging out like we used to as kids, looking at new clothes, talking and laughing; as if nothing had ever happened to hurt our friendship. After about two full hours of non-stop walking we decided to sit down and rest, get something to eat… and then it happened. Guess who just decided to pop by, Bobby Duran.
“Hey baby, how are you feeling?” he said.
“What do you want from her, just leave her alone!” I screamed.
“A little feisty, are we?” he rudely questioned, “on the other hand, I wasn’t talking to you. So, if you know what’s best you’ll leave your mouth shut.”
By the time he said that, Rachael was gone; crashing into people as she sprinted to the farthest bathroom she could find.
“See, listen Robert. I don’t care who you think you are, I don’t care what you think you are; you couldn’t possibly put me in any danger. So lay off with the threats. I don’t buy them.”
“ok, I’m going to set this straight with you. Do NOT ever! Talk to me like that EVER!”
“Aw, did I offend you?” I sympathetically remarked.
Looking at me, furiously He grabbed my arm (as if the whole mall hadn‘t heard our yelling); and just like in my dream I couldn’t get him off. He pulled me out, leading me into his van. As I struggled to break his grip, he smacked me hard across the face.
“You listen to me, I don’t ever want to hear you say anything like that to me again.” he yelled, getting on top of me.
“What are you doing!” I shrieked, “Get off of me!”
“Getting nervous are we?”
“Seriously Bobby get off of me!”
“So, I can’t put you in any danger, huh?”
“Okay, you can. Will you please just get off of me.”
And just than my heart started beating faster than ever and I couldn’t breathe. It felt as if I had just ran a marathon and then was punched by a thousand fist one after another into my chest.
“Come here baby girl, I promise you that if you just cooperate with me; I’ll make it hurt the least I can.”
*Smack*
“Daddy, what are you doing? Please, Stop! No Daddy! No!”
“Did you just hear what I just said to you?”
*smack*
“Daddy, No!!”
I gasped for air, as he leaned off of me holding me up. “Meghan?” he called out. I wasn’t entirely able to answer, I just nodded. Tears rolled down my cheeks, I never wanted to be in a situation like that again. You could tell that Bobby had no idea what to do, he was starting to panic as he realized what he had just almost done.
“Meghan, are you alright?” he stammered, “I’m sorry. I don’t know what I was doing.”
“What the hell is wrong with you…” I stopped, “you drag me into your van and get on top of me demanding that you can put me in danger and you see how I react and think that because I just almost stopped breathing that you ought to apologize!”
He just stared at me, as if someone had just told him someone just died; and right then I ran out of the van, tears still streaming down my face. “Rachael!” I screamed. I had totally forgot that she ran away when he came over. She was still in the bathroom, curled up in the corner by the sinks.
“Rachael, come here. He’s gone.” I called out.
She looked up at me, her eyes red and swollen. “What… what did he do to you?”
“Rach, I’m fine. It doesn’t matter.” I looked around, something didn’t feel right. “Rachael, come on. We need to leave. I’ll explain later.”
Just as she got up, a trashy woman with knotted blonde hair and torn clothes walked into the bathroom.
“Look what we have here.” the woman called out, as she walked over to me. I was frozen with fear. The lady that walked through my most terrible nightmares. She hadn’t change in appearance, she still looked as I remember when I was young.

No this can’t be happening. No! No! Please tell me this is all a dream. This is all a dream, Meghan wake up…. Please wake up!

“Who are you?” I lied.
“You know damn right who I am.” she screamed, echoing around the bathroom.
Fear filled my body as I began to shake. This couldn’t be happening; and just as I said that her hand stroked my face, “who did this to you, angel”
I placed my cell phone on the floor, sliding it over to Rachael. “Please, Call Her!”
“Call who, sweetheart.”
“Stop! Leave me alone!”
“Awe, Baby. That’s no way to talk to your mother.”
“No, Just leave me alone!”
Just as I said that, she grabbed my arm. “Did you just hear what I said?” she led me out of the bathroom, pulling me towards another recognized nightmare.
“No, please!” I choked. I could feel the tears swell up in my throat. “Just leave me alone! Let me go!”
“My oh my! Look at my little girl, she’s as beautiful as her mother.” he spoke softly.

I looked nothing like that piece of dirt. I didn’t like this. I knew something was wrong! Why didn’t I get out of there quicker.

Just as he went to wrap his arms around me, Rachael walked out of the bathroom. She ran over to me grabbing my arm and pulling me with her. By that time I was crying harder than ever. We broke my mother’s hold and got away, as they tried to keep up with us. Dodging in and around people we got out of mall and sprinted as far away as we could. Getting to the nearby highway we stopped to catch our breath. Rachael wrapped her arms around me, holding me close.
“I’m so sorry megg.” she said quietly. I just listened to her, I was so scared. “who was that lady?”
“…my mother” I croaked.
“and that man was your father?”
“yes… can we forget about that for now. When is Aunt Julie coming?”
“she said she would meet us by the road. We just need to look out of her.” and just than Aunt Julie pulled up, Uncle Todd raced out pulling me out of Rachael’s arms.
I cried into his shoulder, “Shh, Babygirl. Everything is fine now, we are here. They won’t hurt you.”
I got into the backseat of the car, Rachael sitting next me holding me hand.
I wasn’t supposed to see them, they were supposed to be gone… left to rot in the troubles of their past. How did they find me… I’ve changed so much.

We finally arrived at the house. I just wanted to leave, I needed to get away and just think to myself. We got into the house and I went straight upstairs and jumped into my bed. No one followed me, so I thought this was my chance, I climbed out the window and ran. I just ran as far as I could, I didn’t know where I was going but I just needed to leave for a little while.

[Renee NAY]

oh. my gosh.
oh my gosh.
is all i can say.

(in a good way)

[moonbeamangel]

wowz x

[ur_awful_iloveyou]

Alright, Sorry for the wait.
it takes me awhile to finish my chapters.
&+ as well, alot has been going on.
Be Safe &+ Enjoy.
= ]

Chapter Ten -

I spent the night outside, just wandering around. I didn’t want to go home, I just wanted to be alone.

why is it at the worst times I never want to talk to someone, I want to be alone. Maybe it’s the fact that I was alone most of my life, the occasional lead on followed by a years worth of abuse in one night.

Around 4:30 a.m. I finally got back to the house, not even bothering to go through my window. I had figured they all knew where I was. I walked in, sneaking upstairs as quickly and quietly as I could. I was freezing and now I actually wanted to get some sleep. Walking into my room, I seen Rachael laying on my bed going through my journal.
“Uhm, Rach?” I paused. “What’re you doing?”
“oh my god, I’m so sorry.” she quickly closed my journal.

Wow, a invasion of personal space… I never thought anyone would dare look into my journal; I had far more secrets in there than I could remember. But for some reason, I wanted her to read it. I had always wanted her to, but I didn’t know how to let her in.

“No, continue reading… it‘ll be easier for me rather than explaining it all” I smiled.
“Are you sure?” she questioned. “I mean, I shouldn‘t have been reading it, it‘s your personal book.”
“Just keep reading; I am going to take a shower, so I’ll be back soon.”
She looked back in, almost as if she was sucked into the book. I got my clothes and set my shower up, just thinking about everything that could possibly go wrong with this situation. I didn’t know what made me trust Rachael more than as kids… but there was just something that I couldn’t explain, almost like a feeling of relief. I took my time in the shower giving Rachael as much time, as I could, to get through most of my journal. I was in for about an hour, until my water started to run cold; I got out and dried off slowly and then put on my clothes. I stood looking in the mirror for what seemed like hours, and I must say I had to have been looking in the mirror for a good ten minutes; and then I heard a crash from my room. I darted out of the bathroom and headed over to the bed where Rachael was, there was a big rock sitting on my bed.
“What Just Happened?” I asked quickly.
“I have know idea, I was just sitting her reading your journal” she stopped crawling over to the window, there was someone standing out there but it was far too dark to see who it was. As soon as they noticed that we were looking out the window, they scurried away quickly.
“What the hell was that?”
“I have know idea, but that’s kind of weird.”
“Yeah, It definitely is.”
“Meg, I never would have thought that had happened to you…” she stopped.
“Yeah, know one ever has.”
“is that why you didn’t come to school for like 3 months that one year?”
I was quiet.

“Honey, Dinner is done.”
“Alright Mommy, I’ll be right there.”
“Oh, Before you go down there; I want you to look at something.”
Walking over to the stairs I waited for daddy to show me, and next thing you know I was thrust down the stairs; tears falling from my eyes before I even fell.
“Aw, sweetie. You should be more careful coming down the stairs.”
“But mommy, daddy pushed me.”
I couldn’t move, it hurt too bad; “oh, you liar! Don’t ever accuse your father of such a horrible thing! You know what happens to bad girls who lie”
And just as she said that she smacked me hard across the face, making the pain a million times worse.

“Meg?” she called out.
I snapped out of it, my eyes starting to water. “Yeah, I was in the hospital and then I got put in a home for awhile; they put me back in that house so many times…”
“What did they do?”
“Exactly what it say in that book.” I hesitated. “They kept doing it, until one night my Aunt Julie and Uncle Todd happened to come over and see me bleeding all over the floor. They took me in and promised me that they wouldn‘t ever hurt me again, I was 11 years old…”
“Oh my god, Meg; I had no idea” she sympathetically replied.
My voice was faint, “No one did.” I stared down at the floor, I had hoped I would never have to talk about it again; I just wanted to put it behind and forget all about it but, I needed someone to talk to… I couldn’t deal with it by myself.
“Meg, I’m so sorry,” she whispered. “I shouldn’t have asked.”
“It’s fine, I wanted to tell you anyway.” I stopped. “but promise me, you won’t leave me this time…”
She moved over and hugged me as tight as she could. “Meg, I love you.”
“I love you too.”
It was quiet after that, Rach just sat there holding me almost as tight as she could. I felt safe, I didn’t want her to let go; I’ve never felt so close to her, even when we were younger.

[ravynsoul]

Wow! A bunch of good installments. Looking forward to more.

[Renee NAY]

*hugs brittiany for her amazing writing*

[ur_awful_iloveyou]

alright, i'm sorry i haven't been writing and posting.
i have chapter eleven finished.
it's just not with me right now.


My English teacher is reading my story over
and is trying to get help me get it published

[ur_awful_iloveyou]

- alright, i'm so sorry i haven't posted in awhile.
my teacher finished it.
and i've got it back now...
i'm working on chapter 12, so hopefully it won't bee too long.

[ur_awful_iloveyou]

Chapter Eleven -

Monday, March 31, 2008

Alright, so Aunt Julie and Uncle Todd didn’t make me go to school today but in a way I guess I really wanted to. I wanted to be there with Rachael; she told me that she would come over tonight so we could get on the bus together tomorrow morning and walk into school together… she was set on making everyone look at me with a different view; although I told her she was probably going to get made fun of and she really didn’t need to prove anything to me… she refused and she told me she didn’t care what anyone said to her about our friendship.

“Meg, pick up the phone!” shouted Aunt Julie.
“Alright, Who is it?” I called back.
“I Believe it’s Rachael.”
I ran to my phone and picked it up quickly, “Hello”
“Hey, When Can I Come Over?”
“Well, when do you want to?”
“Can I come over now?”
“Yeah, Sure.”
“Alright, I’ll be there in a few minutes, Love you.”
“Love you too.”
Waiting for Rachael to get here, I picked the dirty clothes up of my floor and made my bed. I was entirely nervous for the next day to come. Rachael came running up the stairs and opened the door quickly.
“Hey, Sweetie.”
“Hey, how was school?”
“ugh, it was pretty boring; I missed you.” she said with a smile.
“aw, I missed you too; but you know you really don’t have to do this.”
“hun, I’m already here…” she giggled.
I smiled and continued to make my bed, while she started unpacking her things. She laid out a couple different outfits and sat down next to them. “Pick one.” she called out.
“Why?”
“because, I bought some new clothes and I’m giving you an outfit.” she profoundly remarked. “the one you pick, I want you to wear tomorrow.”
Why was she doing this? It felt as if she was keeping something from me; but I just couldn’t figure it out.
“I want you to meet a friend of mine.” she said, breaking my thoughts.
“a friend of yours?”
“Yeah, his name is Joey; I’ve known him for a while but he just moved to our school today.”
“Uhm, Rach, I don’t know about that.”
“Come on, Meg.” she pleaded. “he is a sweetheart, and he is pretty excited about meeting you.”
“We’ll see.”
She started holding clothes up to me, personally picking my outfit for tomorrow.
“Try this on.” she demanded.
I took the clothes out of her hand and headed over towards my closet. I mean, the outfit was cute… teal leggings and a black waist length lace tube-top dress, along with black flats. I put everything on and opened the door quickly; I turned around slowly, showing Rachael. She smiled, “Very Cute, What do you think?”
“I like it.” I answered smiling.
“So, are you comfortable with wearing that tomorrow?”
“I suppose.”
“Alright, I want to do your makeup tomorrow.”
“Okay, fine.”
“Meghan, Rachael, Robert Dinner is Done.” Uncle Todd shouted up the stairs.
I don’t think I really got into who Robert was; Robert is my cousin, Aunt Julie and Uncle Todd’s oldest son, me and him used to be close but we aren’t so close anymore. We all shuffled down the stairs and to the kitchen, sitting down and exchanging smiles around the table. It was Aunt Julie, Uncle Todd, Robert, Me, Rachael, and baby Alex.
“How was your day Rach?” Aunt Julie asked while she passed the chicken around the table.
“Hmm, My Day?” she giggled. “My day was just peachy.”
“Well, that’s good to hear.” Aunt Julie laughed along. “and what about your day Robbie?”
“Aside from a million tests, my day was fine.”
“Didn’t get into any trouble did you?” she smiled.
Aunt Julie was beautiful, the way her blue eyes glistened in the light; every time she smiled it was like a weight of your shoulders; no matter what the situation was, she could look at you and with her reassuring smile you would just know that everything would be fine.
“No, Mom; I didn’t get into any trouble.” he said agitated.
“Good.”
Everything got quiet as we all began eating.

[Angbdxgf]

wow!!
i just spent klike trwo hours reading this!!
bloody amazing!!!
more?

[x-dying-inside-x]

that is amazing!

[crazykat]

Really, really good. Would love to read more.

[BreeLovesStephen]

hiiya everyone.
i apologize for my absence.
i've been cramming around doing stuff for school
and keeping up with my friends.
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i will be continuing my story from this account.
and i will have new chapters up soon.
xx


Keeping Reading, Pwease :P

[Renee NAY]

of course i will read, dear! i've missed it.