Unexplainable anger/rage

BoundNoMore · 23-01-2009, 10:43 PM

Lately I have been episodes of.... well I guess it's anger.
I am not really sure. All of the sudden like, out of the blue
my teeth will start to grind involuntarily, my fist(s) will clinch,
and/or I will feel this overwhelming sense of... rage build up on
the inside of me. It is triggered by anything and everything.
The littlest of things can and will set it off. For example,
if my dog wipes her cold wet nose on my hand and I don't want her to.
Or if my brother-in-law looks at me the wrong way. Or if I am in bed and
I hear my father-in-law clear his throat from his bed (which if he does it
a lot it means he is awake).

If people are, in my opinion, making too much noise or being too hyper
(ie my sister-in-law), I feel rage. When she comes inside from smoking
and sits down beside me, I feel rage.

And sometimes... I just feel this rage for no "reason" whatsoever"
It has no trigger that I know of. It just... happens.

What the f*** is wrong with me? I feel like I am going completely insane!

Merc · 23-01-2009, 10:52 PM

Hey there, i've been thru the same thing before. And someimes it would end up in smashing/punching things. It got where i was scared i was going to hit someONE. Thankfully i didnt. For me it was anger at being ill mostly; of feeling useless and low and hating myself. Now it's because of my weight, i hate what i have gained form a new med and i find im so close to being pissed off and rage most of the time. One minor lil thing can happen and it sets me off too. But i know it's the weight and i'm doing something about it to lose it now, starting yesterday so it helped knowing what it was.
Can you think of what might be under it? Could iut be because you are mad at how you feel? And it sounds like you have a lot of ppl around you which never was good for me, i felt smothered. Could that maybe be it?
Do you have anyone you can really talk too? Being able to tell my hubby i was mad helped. It focused it and settled it down for me.
Keep talking here if it helps ok? ANd feel free to PM anytime ok?
Thinking of you
romp

Stellata · 24-01-2009, 08:28 AM

You've a lot of frustrations going on.
It's no wonder it would build up into such crescendos.

Tears of Solitude · 24-01-2009, 12:22 PM

Keep talking about it, which will help. I think its going to take some soul searching to find the cause of your frustration.

Could if be a side effect of Meds???? You should mention it to your doctor/psych, they might be able to help.

Keep us updated on how your getting on.
Thinking of you

Jade xxx

BoundNoMore · 24-01-2009, 10:27 PM

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Originally Posted by Tears of Solitude

Could if be a side effect of Meds????

The only medicine I am on is Topamax (Topiamate) for migraines.

Tears of Solitude · 24-01-2009, 10:49 PM

< hugs > Im sorry your still feeling all that rage. It doesnt help when you dont know what is causing it, which makes you even more frustrated with yourself < catch 22 >.

Keep talking and maybe it will lessen. Maybe make an appt with your GP this week, maybe he will have a few ideas.

Sorry that I assumed you were on Meds, which was wrong of me. I just thought it could be a reason. xxx hope you forgive me

Jade xxx

BoundNoMore · 24-01-2009, 11:24 PM

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Originally Posted by Tears of Solitude

Sorry that I assumed you were on Meds, which was wrong of me. I just thought it could be a reason. xxx hope you forgive me

Don't be sorry. You had no way of knowing I wasn't on meds. You are forgiven (even though, in my opinion, you have nothing to be forgiven for)

Sigma · 25-01-2009, 11:23 AM

I'm finding the same at the moment - in my case I know it's frustration because I am raising issues with people and being brushed off & ignored. From your previous posts it sounds as if you're experiencing something similar. Do you think that could be part of the problem?

Tears of Solitude · 25-01-2009, 01:40 PM

Thank you Amanda < hugs >

How are you feeling today ?????

simply dashing · 25-01-2009, 03:22 PM

Anger is a natural and quite healthy emotion really.
You have to look at the cause of it, because by the sound of it there is a large underlying cause of anger and it keeps on coming out in little bursts over small things. I might be wrong

~Grace~ · 25-01-2009, 03:35 PM

Similar happens to me too Amanda, and the way I try to deal with it is to leave the situation and try to calm down in another room. Sometimes it has been so extreme it has led to sh. Or if for example it is the noise being made of a glass on the table I will simply ask for them to stop making the noise. I guess we have to look after ourselves in those situations.

Hope youre ok xxx

BoundNoMore · 28-01-2009, 02:12 AM

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Originally Posted by Tokoloshe

I'm finding the same at the moment - in my case I know it's frustration because I am raising issues with people and being brushed off & ignored. From your previous posts it sounds as if you're experiencing something similar. Do you think that could be part of the problem?

probably so...

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Originally Posted by simply dashing

Anger is a natural and quite healthy emotion really.
You have to look at the cause of it, because by the sound of it there is a large underlying cause of anger and it keeps on coming out in little bursts over small things. I might be wrong

I posted about this on another website, and someone helped me figure out the (possible) cause...
it's possible that it's just tension and frustration at being in the situation you are in. You are somewhere you don't want to be with people you don't want to be with, with no way to get out of the house when you want.
(My husband and I are currently living at his parents' house... with his parents and brother and sister. His sister has told me to my face "I don't like you." and she is so hateful. I get migraine headaches quite often, and she will purposely be extra loud around me and **** like that. I can't drive because of my disability, and my husband leaves for work at 6am and doesn't get back until around 5 or 5:30pm)

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Originally Posted by ~Grace~

Similar happens to me too Amanda, and the way I try to deal with it is to leave the situation and try to calm down in another room. Sometimes it has been so extreme it has led to sh. Or if for example it is the noise being made of a glass on the table I will simply ask for them to stop making the noise. I guess we have to look after ourselves in those situations.

Unfortunately... these situations often lend to sh with me :(
Also... these people (especially my sister-in-law) are not the type of people to give a f--- about my feelings, etc so just because I ask them to stop, doesn't mean they will.

Tears of Solitude · 29-01-2009, 10:26 PM

Im so sorry that you are in such a difficult situation. < big hugs >

I just wanted to offer my support

Jade xxx