Triggering (SI) - Update On Me, Kinda

[dying__deep__inside]

I went to the ER again this morning.

I had to get my right thigh and left wrist stitched.

The shots for the anesthetic in my wrist hurt like a b!tch.

My mom asked if the doctor knew any psychiatrists, since we both could NOT stand my old one.

I'm supposed to be seeing a new one soon, which is good, mainly.

However, I'm nervous about that.

I want meds that are actually going to help.

I know they aren't supposed to be a magic cure, but they are supposed to help somewhat.

Hopefully, I won't just be labeled as depressed this time.

But, I don't think that the psychiatrist will prescribe meds on the first visit.

With the other psychiatrist I saw, he spoke to my therapist first, so I got meds relatively quickly, though they didn't help.

I think next week I only have one therapy session, though I don't know why that would be that way.


I tried to hit a vein and they sent me home.


WTF?

[raistlin]

Awh. Sorry to hear you are going through a hard time right now and that you are not getting the help you needed. But that's good that you will be seeing a new therapist, hopefully they will be better than your last. I hope you are doing alright. *hugs*

[dying__deep__inside]

Thanks.

I have to figure out a way to move out, even though I'm sixteen.

[Superficial]

Hey, It's not easy moving out at the age of 16. Money.. Bills.. Jobs.. Food.. Rent... and so on.
Just take care of yourself, If i had a place of my own i wouldnt ever eat.

Maybe you should wait a little longer?, Look after yourself. x

[dying__deep__inside]

I can't survive here much longer.

My mom let my jack@$$ of a father back in and I HATE him.

But part of me keeps saying that I'm over exaggerating and need to just shut the f*ck up.

I wish I had died.