I remember when I was younger I used to hit or bite myself when I got angry or upset so yeah I think I have been SIing a lot longer than I would have thought.
See I cannot feel this, not matter how you try and in the real world, there's no goodbyes.
I would have answered no, but then I thought about it. I would dig my fingernails into my skin starting when I was three, and I continued doing that until I was ten. I still do it at times. Then, I would also break or sprain my bones constantly... My mom and I were at the hospital at least once a week. I jumped off a bridge when I was eleven. Then I stopped, I think.. Then when I was thirteen I began to cut.
no, i started at 12 almost out of the blue. i was just miserable for a few months then started cutting and never looked back. things didn't get any better. but i was happy before that and don't remember every trying to hurt myself. the only thing even related is that i've bitten my fingernails BIGTIME (i've honestly never met anybody with as badly bitten fingernails as my own) for as long as i can remember. but that's genuinely habit rather than any desire to hurt myself.
Oh I did so so much. I find a lot of self harmers did as well when they were really young.
I picked at my skin since I was 5, and would burn myself even before then.
I would always pinch and hit myself, too.
i thought about this too, and yea i think i started before i even thougth i really started
i used to get cans of hair spray or what not and hold them close to my arm as i spread and it uned to brun the skin.. i did that when i was like 13/14 but didnt start SH till i was 16 also i thought.. i used to pull my hair out but didnt think about that till now.. its funny what you think about XXX
I hadn't really thought about this before to be honest.
Like many others, I used to bite my arms and hands and hit my head off walls and doors when I was younger. I started cutting at 14 and thats been going on for just over 2 years now.
I don't think it's that we're born with it, I think that if you're not taught to deal with your emotions properly then you can resort to self harm quite quickly. I was never really taught how to deal with my emotions so when I got angry as a child I used to go up to my room and sit against the wall and smash my head off the wall repeatedly. That was my 'stress buster'.
I'm the same, i did things without realising, like hitting my head, and scratching from a really early age. I used to bite myself, and hit, but i don't rememer any of the ages, just, remember it happening. I always used to pick scabs aswell, and i'd feel satisfaction if it hurt, or they bled. Same with peeling of plasters which was weird
I think it probably was to do with my parents, which i hate to say...
my dad's dad recieved EST a lot, and had severe depression, and ocd, my dad's been on Prozac, but I've never been told all the full reasons, but I think he has anger problems, which I know I do, but i resort to sh, not shouting...
my mum is an emotional wreck, she's very paranoid, and thinks that everyone's against her and things, and i think i'm a bit like that in lots of ways.
i'm ranting, sorry, but yeah, i think it does have a lot to do with upbringing, although often it's nobody's fault.
iiif that makes sense?
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Yes, I've grown up with it. It feels like I've been self injuring forever, even though I haven't.
I'm almost 20. I started burning when I was 16, cutting when I was 11. But before that I would do things like throw myself into walls and pick at my wounds. I have lots of wounds, accidental and not, from over the years, and I have never let any of them heal on their own. So if you count wound interference, I've been doing it at least since I was 3.
The past doesn't dictate the future, I don't think that self injury has to be a life-long thing for me. It is just a very hard habit to break and not one that I have any desire to break at the time being.
"I asked the sun to tell me about the big bang. The sun said 'It hurts to become.'" -- Andrea Gibson, I Sing The Body Electric Especially When My Power Is Out
I hadnt thought about it, but when i was younger i liked getting cuts, like by falling over.
I would try really hard to get a scab?
Then pull it off so i could watch it bleed.
A bit wierd but i loved the blood coming out?
Ralph wept for the end of innocence, the darkness of man's heart, and the fall through the air of a true, wise friend called Piggy.
If we dont get home soon, we'll be barmy..
I started nail digging at 11, and cutting at 12. There was alot of mental health problems in my family while I was growng up, my mum was sectioned when I was 14 during which she overdosed. Me and my sister got it of each other she overdosed alot while we were in our teenage years, she also cut.
i do have to say this is a very interesting point.
when i was young i used to psychically attack myself when i was upset. i remember once deliberately slamming my arm in a door. i also used to put things between my teeth to deliberately make my gums bleed and if there was a candle near and i was upset i would grab the hot wax to burn myself with. i also burnt myself deliberately in the shower. i used to turn the water up as hot as it would go and then stand under it for a minimum of 2 minutes. i thought that i was a bad girl and i was a good girl if i was doing this. i did it to the extent that my back blistered and i was screaming with agony. i also used to bite myself if i was in a test and didnt know the answer because i thought i was stupid. i was actually removed from my year 2 sats exam because i was biting my arms so badly they were bleeding and i was crying. i also used to rip clumps of my hair out when i was very young and i now have an obsession with plucking hair.
