Life feels like a prison to me x Needs help, please.

Harmless_Baby · 28-12-2008, 05:34 PM

Grrh,
My head feels so messed up.
So much is happening, all before my eyes. Time is flying by so fast, I can't seem to catch in time to grab hold of what joy comes my way & make the most of it.
I misses all my old skl mates, their all in the same city as me, but has grown up & made their own friends through college & work & made it their life now.
Ive created my own life too. But doesn't feel like it's complete without spending time again with them.
Because I feels this would make me shine the person I am & who I wanna be again!
I misses the old me.
Im on tag for another 3 months. Just done 3months from my 6month period. Damn!
I'm down to almost a size UK X! Which I am happy about, but it seems like Im the only one that's happy for me!

I were chatting to mother on christmas day, she told me that our family has that fatty gene.. where the only way we'll ever be slim is if we overly exercise because of the metablism-rate our body in our gene's are at!
Bloody great that is!
So not only just for now do i haves to go gym several times a week, just to make myself look & feel totally awesome to match up with today's expetation of the media & us competitve gals but means ive got to go for the rest of my life, being spent at the gym unless I wanna get real big!
WELL THAT's JUST FREAKIN GREAT!!!! ISN:T IT!
GRH

!!!!

-Shae-Lynn* · 29-12-2008, 01:32 AM

If it will make you happy, call up your old friends! I'm sure they miss you too. You guys could have a reunion. It would be fun.
Sorry I don't have any other advise except take deep breaths and live life to the fullest!

Sometimes Crazy · 29-12-2008, 06:08 PM

A reunion with friends and spending a good time together could be what you need to lift your mood. Do you think that's possible?

As for the family gene... it was unkind of your mother to word it in that way, as although we all have genes from our families, our bodies do work differently and have different shapes. A good diet and moderate exercise would be much more beneficial than over-doing it and causing injury. Perhaps if you're really worried, you could speak to your GP?

Harmless_Baby · 30-12-2008, 02:19 PM

Heya...
Well, thankyou! Replying is such a great thing you could have done.
An well, I just loves big hugs when Im down like this,
I suppose it just goes to show that random people do actually care x

Just feels so lost.
Most of my old skl mates, they all goes out clubbin these days.
Wants to go out & join them.. but i can't. cos Im on tag!!
For my 21st aswell!! That really stresses me out.
An because of that, everything's just gone tits up in my life.
I feels as if im being cut-off from living my life.
Got tagged for 6months for assualting a copper whilst drunk on a night out, LAST YEAR!!! Grh.
Ive already done 3months of it!
An it's crazed me out this much so far, Im so scared what another 2months could do to me in this emotional state x

GoodbyeMyLove · 30-12-2008, 11:28 PM

Maybe you could at least ring up some old friends and talk to them? Hearing their familiar voices and chatting about the old times can do miracles and it sounds like that could make you feel a lot better already.

Also, what your mother said was unnecessary and doesn't even have to be true! I know of people with bigger parents and siblings while they are a perfectly healthy size. She can't know for sure how your metabolism works, so don't let that drag you down!