Triggering (SI/Suicide) - i fail - Page 2

GoodbyeMyLove · 28-12-2008, 02:53 AM

Exactly, it doesn't make it any better. Nobody has the right to determine how you deserve to feel. I know that doesn't change it, but I'm just worried that you're pulling yourself down even more by saying that you deserve to suffer. This way you won't let the tiniest positive thought ever enter your head.
You have people you're important to - your mum, your friend - so I refuse to believe that you're anywhere near as terrible a person as you describe yourself.

You have posted on here, because you were either looking for support or because you needed to let a lot of things out (or both), so that you can feel better. Therefore there is a little part inside of you that believes that you deserve help. You're only struggling at the moment, because that small part is overrun by a bigger one putting you down. You can get out of that. It's not going to be easy, but over time and with some support you will be able to do it. I believe in you.

danskpige · 28-12-2008, 02:59 AM

thank you, you make me cry but better tears than normal. i hope i will not feel like this forever. writing it out helps gets it out of my head a bit.

sorry these post totaly contradict each other, its a bit like there is 2 parts of my like you say one wants help and one hates me and thinks i deserve to feel like this. it feel a bit like have 2 very diffrent people in my head, but both are screaming

GoodbyeMyLove · 28-12-2008, 03:12 AM

It must feel terrible to be fighting with yourself like that on top of everything that's already putting you down. I just hope that I didn't make you cry, because what I wrote made you feel worse. It's good to hear that writing it out helps and I hope you'll feel better soon.
*hugs*

danskpige · 28-12-2008, 03:14 AM

if it makes sense it made me feel better and worse at the same time. hugs are apreciated

danskpige · 28-12-2008, 01:45 PM

gonning to spend a week with a friend today, im so glad to be getting out of my parents house. but this friend hasn't seen me in months and has no idea whats going on in my life im so scared they will notice somthing is up, what if they ask questions. what if they don't like this me. and i know as its new year they will want to go out which i can really face.

im worried about my arms too, what if they see! and wrong as it is im really worried that im not going to be able to cut in a week, im going to go mad.

sorry to be wasting space agian i just wanted to say it, i should be so excited about seing them again but im so scared